do you really want drama in your life? i mean, my life is full of it and sometimes i don't even have to walk outside. it's just there. whether or not i like it, it just is. it's not all it's cracked up to be. just alot of stress and mental frusteration mixed with just a pinch of emotional turmoil. if you add a few heartbreaks in there, you have yourself a full meal.
i think i'm naturally dramatical but in a nondramatical way. but to some that just doesn't make sense. although i truly believe this theory to be absolutely 100% true.
i would trade you your life anyday. well, that or just for fun. i don't think you'd enjoy my life very much.
you know, i guess i don't like "security" all that much. it is interesting when there is twists and turns here and there.
i sometimes get to that point where it's kind of like an overstimulis problem. and it's just all too much. then my body just wants to shut down and my brain is saying something completely opposite. if it hadn't been for the constant battling within me i don't believe i would have made it this far in life.
i do agree with you in soo many ways. you have made the decisions that encourage things to happen the way that they have.
i am guilty of looking ignorant and arrogant (you spelt it wrong) lol. there's one time. but i just had a similiar situation happen recently about people judging my life and telling me who i am. the problem is, not many people actually know me. hell, i don't fucking know me somedays. i just found it an outrage that people could actually really know an entire situation to know what's going on.
like the situation on myfamily between lori and gretchen. i don't always agree with lori. but there are some viewpoints i totally understand and some i agree with and some that just don't even make sense. but we are all conditioned a certain way, i guess. i mean, that's what i think. and just being conditioned by parental influences, happenings in your life, whatever. they all can make up you in some way. you change as you go. some stay the exact same person their entire life. i just want people to be. as they are. and sometimes talks and utter over-communication spoiled by debate can make or break a given situation. it sucks. i just want to love people that i love. once i have a friend and once i know i can trust that person, i am comfortable around them, and they stand by my side even just one time. i will always, regardless if i agree with them or not, stand by theirs. i'm not saying i'd go out of my way to agree with them, but i certainly wouldn't let them get bombarded.
which brings me to say i'm really fucking proud of you for standing up for your friend. it really impressed me. not that you were trying to, i'm saying it just did. a friend like that is hard to come by. i wish i had more friends like that.
i give you alot of credit. but let viewpoints be viewpoints and nothing more or nothing less. you have yours, speak them. they have theirs, listen. and just be as you are or were. i usually try to go by intuition. it's such a good thing when it's working. (i make it sound like it's machinery or something geez).
anyway. leah, i have alot of respect for you. you're an awesome observer, great friend (lori always talks highly of you whether you want to believe it or not) and you are fabulous listener.
take care of yourself and be you without outer influence. you're truly incredible.
Well that was very cool of you to put up such a long post....I didn't think that anyone ever really read what I write on this thing!
Thanks for the compliments as well...you know that I think you rock too. You're very intriguing to me. Very mysterious I think. I think you know that though.
How's Lori doing? Haven't talked to that girl in a while!
As far as the Amanda thing goes I just felt like I was in such a tight spot because I care about her a lot, but I also care about gretch and lori a whole lot..you know. Drama drama drama...but I just didn't think it would be right to just roll over and take it...i tried to explain things so that no one would get pissed and I think we all talked about it in a mature manner...which is always good!
I know what you mean. But I give you alot of credit, for sticking up for someone you care about. They had their part, and you had yours. Lori knows how I feel about the whole situation. There are some parts I agree on one side and some on the other.
You're very intriguing to me. I'm glad the feeling is mutual.
I'm sure whenever you come back to Manitowoc for a short visit, we could hang out with you. That or I would love to go to Kalamazoo again. I've been there before and I found interest in it.
Take care, and yes we always read your entries. If I have something to say, I'm definitely going to say it.
i think i'm naturally dramatical but in a nondramatical way. but to some that just doesn't make sense. although i truly believe this theory to be absolutely 100% true.
i would trade you your life anyday. well, that or just for fun. i don't think you'd enjoy my life very much.
you know, i guess i don't like "security" all that much. it is interesting when there is twists and turns here and there.
i sometimes get to that point where it's kind of like an overstimulis problem. and it's just all too much. then my body just wants to shut down and my brain is saying something completely opposite. if it hadn't been for the constant battling within me i don't believe i would have made it this far in life.
i do agree with you in soo many ways. you have made the decisions that encourage things to happen the way that they have.
i am guilty of looking ignorant and arrogant (you spelt it wrong) lol. there's one time. but i just had a similiar situation happen recently about people judging my life and telling me who i am. the problem is, not many people actually know me. hell, i don't fucking know me somedays. i just found it an outrage that people could actually really know an entire situation to know what's going on.
like the situation on myfamily between lori and gretchen. i don't always agree with lori. but there are some viewpoints i totally understand and some i agree with and some that just don't even make sense. but we are all conditioned a certain way, i guess. i mean, that's what i think. and just being conditioned by parental influences, happenings in your life, whatever. they all can make up you in some way. you change as you go. some stay the exact same person their entire life. i just want people to be. as they are. and sometimes talks and utter over-communication spoiled by debate can make or break a given situation. it sucks. i just want to love people that i love. once i have a friend and once i know i can trust that person, i am comfortable around them, and they stand by my side even just one time. i will always, regardless if i agree with them or not, stand by theirs. i'm not saying i'd go out of my way to agree with them, but i certainly wouldn't let them get bombarded.
which brings me to say i'm really fucking proud of you for standing up for your friend. it really impressed me. not that you were trying to, i'm saying it just did. a friend like that is hard to come by. i wish i had more friends like that.
i give you alot of credit. but let viewpoints be viewpoints and nothing more or nothing less. you have yours, speak them. they have theirs, listen. and just be as you are or were. i usually try to go by intuition. it's such a good thing when it's working. (i make it sound like it's machinery or something geez).
anyway. leah, i have alot of respect for you. you're an awesome observer, great friend (lori always talks highly of you whether you want to believe it or not) and you are fabulous listener.
take care of yourself and be you without outer influence. you're truly incredible.
~casey
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Thanks for the compliments as well...you know that I think you rock too. You're very intriguing to me. Very mysterious I think. I think you know that though.
How's Lori doing? Haven't talked to that girl in a while!
As far as the Amanda thing goes I just felt like I was in such a tight spot because I care about her a lot, but I also care about gretch and lori a whole lot..you know. Drama drama drama...but I just didn't think it would be right to just roll over and take it...i tried to explain things so that no one would get pissed and I think we all talked about it in a mature manner...which is always good!
Thanks again!
~Leah
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I know what you mean. But I give you alot of credit, for sticking up for someone you care about. They had their part, and you had yours. Lori knows how I feel about the whole situation. There are some parts I agree on one side and some on the other.
You're very intriguing to me. I'm glad the feeling is mutual.
I'm sure whenever you come back to Manitowoc for a short visit, we could hang out with you. That or I would love to go to Kalamazoo again. I've been there before and I found interest in it.
Take care, and yes we always read your entries. If I have something to say, I'm definitely going to say it.
~Casey
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