Time Feels So Much Closer Now, You Are With Me
crossposted from Lee Edward McIlmoyle's blog
Sitting quietly with headphones on, listening to Yes music. This is so good for me, I can’t even explain it.
I played a bit of The Secret World earlier. It’s mostly searching for stuff and shooting zombies right now, but it promises to get more interesting as time goes on, if I can just get out of this town. I don’t resent these zombie hordes quite as much as I did the ones in WoW, but it’s a close one, because Zombie Apocalypse fiction gets on my nerves. I don’t watch it unless forced to, and it almost always irritates and makes me cringe, if it doesn’t make me anxious and miserable. I know folks, some close friends, who just love the stuff, but it does nothing for me.
That said, most of the classic horror film monsters no longer attract my interest. Stephenie Meyer ruined vampires, and as far as I’m concerned, that’s what’s lead to zombie lite fic like The Walking Dead, which I have no interest in whatsoever. But then, most of what turns on modern television audiences doesn’t do a thing for me. My tastes are too particular. I like my ravenous hordes to have a cool sci-fi angle, or a really cool supernatural angle, but I definitely don’t want to see or hear the same stories I’ve heard before. Nuclear mutation? Necronomicon? Even biogenetic weapons, I believe, have been used in some of the fic I’ve read somewhere. I’m over it. I need new twists to drag me down that road again.
And I hate zombie flesh eating sounds. I play with the sound turned down and music playing. Makes it much less nerve wracking.
Mostly, I’m just playing to see what Cthulian lore gets rolled into this starter area. Much more interesting than mindless flesh eaters.
So, my self-imposed vacation is just about at an end. I have a meeting some time tonight, and after that, I expect to get pretty busy again, at least for a bit. Lots of meetings piling up in the next couple of weeks. Lost of PB stuff in particular.
I plan on getting back to work on the novel tomorrow or the day after. I’m almost itching to get back to it. I want that feeling of needing to finish the book before I attempt to do it, or it will just be going through the motions, and it won’t end strong enough. I sort of know how it ends (I’ve had the basic ending for months), but I need to punch it and make it stick, which so far, I don’t feel up to.
After the first draft of the novel is done, I set it aside for a little bit and wait for the fever to edit it arrives. Meanwhile, I finish plotting the revised plot for the concept album, and get to work revising the lyrics and programming the bed track drums. I still haven’t decided if it’s going to be a two or three disc set, but I’m leaning towards three, because I see it as a three act play. I just need to convince myself that I have the right character and the right story, because I’m wavering on that. I like the elements, but I’m not sold that I’ve found the heart of the real story. I just have topical stuff and a yearning to express something powerful and essential. Something the world needs. Right now I have something that feels like two parts Citizen Kane, two parts Sin City. Not quite as inspiring as I’d like this to be. It has to really reach out and speak to people.
I’m thinking it might lift a little more if I swap out the male protagonist for a female. Something about that sounds like it could really get an important message int here. There aren’t enough concept albums about women. There is a lot of struggle out there right now to redefine feminism and sexuality, and I’m not the guy to speak to the needs of the former, but the latter is something I feel like I might have a few things to say about.
Maybe it will be about Andy. Maybe not. We’ll see.
Dishes are done. Need to vacuum. Gonna be a tight week before we get money for bills and groceries and such again. Just gotta lay low for a bit longer.
Time to end this and go do something constructive until dinner.
Thank you for reading.
Lee.
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Sitting quietly with headphones on, listening to Yes music. This is so good for me, I can’t even explain it.
I played a bit of The Secret World earlier. It’s mostly searching for stuff and shooting zombies right now, but it promises to get more interesting as time goes on, if I can just get out of this town. I don’t resent these zombie hordes quite as much as I did the ones in WoW, but it’s a close one, because Zombie Apocalypse fiction gets on my nerves. I don’t watch it unless forced to, and it almost always irritates and makes me cringe, if it doesn’t make me anxious and miserable. I know folks, some close friends, who just love the stuff, but it does nothing for me.
That said, most of the classic horror film monsters no longer attract my interest. Stephenie Meyer ruined vampires, and as far as I’m concerned, that’s what’s lead to zombie lite fic like The Walking Dead, which I have no interest in whatsoever. But then, most of what turns on modern television audiences doesn’t do a thing for me. My tastes are too particular. I like my ravenous hordes to have a cool sci-fi angle, or a really cool supernatural angle, but I definitely don’t want to see or hear the same stories I’ve heard before. Nuclear mutation? Necronomicon? Even biogenetic weapons, I believe, have been used in some of the fic I’ve read somewhere. I’m over it. I need new twists to drag me down that road again.
And I hate zombie flesh eating sounds. I play with the sound turned down and music playing. Makes it much less nerve wracking.
Mostly, I’m just playing to see what Cthulian lore gets rolled into this starter area. Much more interesting than mindless flesh eaters.
So, my self-imposed vacation is just about at an end. I have a meeting some time tonight, and after that, I expect to get pretty busy again, at least for a bit. Lots of meetings piling up in the next couple of weeks. Lost of PB stuff in particular.
I plan on getting back to work on the novel tomorrow or the day after. I’m almost itching to get back to it. I want that feeling of needing to finish the book before I attempt to do it, or it will just be going through the motions, and it won’t end strong enough. I sort of know how it ends (I’ve had the basic ending for months), but I need to punch it and make it stick, which so far, I don’t feel up to.
After the first draft of the novel is done, I set it aside for a little bit and wait for the fever to edit it arrives. Meanwhile, I finish plotting the revised plot for the concept album, and get to work revising the lyrics and programming the bed track drums. I still haven’t decided if it’s going to be a two or three disc set, but I’m leaning towards three, because I see it as a three act play. I just need to convince myself that I have the right character and the right story, because I’m wavering on that. I like the elements, but I’m not sold that I’ve found the heart of the real story. I just have topical stuff and a yearning to express something powerful and essential. Something the world needs. Right now I have something that feels like two parts Citizen Kane, two parts Sin City. Not quite as inspiring as I’d like this to be. It has to really reach out and speak to people.
I’m thinking it might lift a little more if I swap out the male protagonist for a female. Something about that sounds like it could really get an important message int here. There aren’t enough concept albums about women. There is a lot of struggle out there right now to redefine feminism and sexuality, and I’m not the guy to speak to the needs of the former, but the latter is something I feel like I might have a few things to say about.
Maybe it will be about Andy. Maybe not. We’ll see.
Dishes are done. Need to vacuum. Gonna be a tight week before we get money for bills and groceries and such again. Just gotta lay low for a bit longer.
Time to end this and go do something constructive until dinner.
Thank you for reading.
Lee.
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