Make A Jazz Noise Here

Mar 18, 2014 09:39

crossposted from Lee Edward McIlmoyle's blog
I was just going to update Facebook when it occurred to me that I might babble a tiny bit on the point I was going to make, which is that, basically, I’m tired.

I’d like to welcome Karen Burson to my website, as this may be new to her. Karen is the new Participatory Budgeting - Ward 2 (Hamilton) Facilitator, and she has heard a few things from me about PBW2 2013, so we’re getting kinda chummy. Karen, nothing I say next reflects on you, nor should you worry unduly.

As I was saying, I’m tired. My civic engagement levels have been relatively high for the last couple of years, and I’m starting to feel it in my bones. I knew this time was coming, and I tried to avert it by stepping back and avoiding taking on new responsibilities, but old duties came back to me with added workloads, so I’m now in overload mode. I’ve tried to get organized, but I’m missing key information, and I don’t want to turn into a control freak, so in short order, I may start hemorrhaging duties and getting down to the core job, whatever that will be.

As all of this stuff is voluntary, and no honorariums are on offer (that I know of), I have to start thinking about the fact that I am essentially living off of Disability and the funds aren’t carrying my wife and I very far with our fairly fussy dietary needs (no processed crap foods for my wife, please) and our phone/internet and hydro bills. I also have a not-inconsiderable amount of debt that I’m not addressing right now, which I hope to fix in the future, if and when I ever start selling my books in more than single digits a month.

All of this means that, in the near future, I’m going to start reevaluating my involvement levels in all of these activities, to determine what I need to be involved in versus what I can afford to let go of. I have no idea how that’s going to turn out. Could be PB. Could be SCA. Could be nothing. Or I might just figure out a way to manage my volunteer time better without depriving myself creative time and rest time and time for hobbies, whatever the fuck those are.

So I’m going to be quiet for a day or two and wait for the energy to transform things to return to me. That means I have one or two small jobs to take care of, but mostly you won’t hear from me until I come out of hiding and put some (hopefully clean) pants on and notify the world of how I will be interacting with it in 2014.

In other news, finishing the first draft of THE APPROXIMATE DISTANCE TO LIMBO soon, and then I start writing and recording the new Etcetera Thesis album, STEEP INCLINATIONS (which I really need to make a page for). I’m listening to a LOT of Billy Sherwood right now, because that’s the frame of mind I’m in. Expect that to mean something later.

If you’re on the emergency call list (you know who you are), feel free to contact me. Everyone else, take a number and wait. BIAB.

Thank you for reading. Be good to yourselves.

Lee.

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