051 ; i'm gonna miss you foreverrr
so i had a dream last night. my grandma died. it wasn't like, showing her dying. she sort of just dissapeared and i started crying .. and i woke up and i had tears going down my face. it was really weird. but i didn't think much of it because i have weird dreams all the time that don't mean anything.
side note: if you didn't know, my grandma is really sick. she has brain cancer, lung cancer, a tumor on her adrenal glands (where energy comes from) .. and she had a small stroke the other day.
so i went and told my mom about my dream and she got all serious and said - "michelle, i'm only saying this so that you're prepared .. but i don't think that she has much longer." and like .. i just immediately broke down crying. i'm still crying about it .. and like .. i don't know. i can't imagine my grandma not being here. you can't be prepared for the death of someone you love. it's just not possible. i love my grandma so much and i am so close to her .. i just can't stop thinking about this, as much as i want to.
please don't leave ..