050 ; let me be the one telling you it's alright ..
i woke up this morning knowing that i would be upset. i had a dream about ryan [schackne] and like, i walked up to him and hugged him and i was crying hysterically in my dream. then i woke up at like 5am and i had like tears on my face. i went back to sleep and then i woke up in a really bad mood, and then my mom told me that the doctors think that my grandma had a stroke. and that upset me so much .. but i'm trying to cope with it right now.
okay so on a happier note, i had a really good day/night yesterday. we lost our game 1-0 to walt whitman .. but i'm okay with it because we played very good. i hate that fucking girl stephanie, seriously. but whatever. this team can get so ridiculous with the drama and crap. but anyway, yeah, afterwards me, eleni, jess and perla went and got our stuff in the locker room and then we went to go watch the boys' varsity volleyball game. it was against ward melville and omg the kids on the melville team were soo disformed .. there was like some gay kid that wore tighty whities ;x hahah what a loser, then we had stick stickly .. this kid who was like 7 feet tall and about 10 pounds. lol. but yeah sachem did really good <3 awesome job boys. during the middle of the game i thought i was gonna like pass out. so i went outside for awhile then watched a little more of the game, then alli and ellie cangi showed up and we hung out with them too for awhile. afterwardsss eleni's mom picked me and eleni up and we hung out at eleni's for awhile. it was so fun =) <3 you punto.
yeah so today .. i don't even know what's on the agenda. i know i gotta clean my room >=| .. how exciting. i might spend the night at my grandma's house .. i don't know yet. it might be too depressing to stay there for the night but i don't know, we'll see what happens. i have no voice. that's cool.
oh yeah, and mr. daniel surico i appreciate everything you have done for me .. you have no idea how much better you make me feel when i feel like i'm at an absolute low. thanks for everything you loser =)
pasta party on thursday at dmac's <3
we had our OWN little pasta party at friendly's on tuesday =)
love you allll <3
i love krysten so much <333
all i wanna do is please you
please myself by living my life too
and all the stupid things i do
have absolutely no reflection on
how i feel about you