Blah
Been in a really blah mood lately. Hell when have I not been in a blah mood the past few years. I've really been sleeping like crap lately.
We're heading into fall and moms really getting to me again. But at the same time I look at her (like last night) in the garden and see how she's getting. She's 85 and I can see the frailty in her. I'm scared one of these days I'm going to come home and find that she's fallen and broken something. I don't see a home being much further off in all honesty. So that's all been eating at me for a while now. There's only one of me and so much time to take care of everything in. It would be nice to have some help from the family but that's a fucking joke and a half.
Work well what can I say. I think I mentioned someone getting caught stealing property and being fired so that left us down to one installer, two techs and a floater. Well the floater wound up popping poz on a piss test with his parole office (for the third time) and he's in rehab now for three weeks. Probably won't have much of a job to come back to but that isn't my problem. No one really wants to be bothered with him anymore. In the meantime those of us that are left are having to work extra to make up for him being gone. So now I'm down to one day a week off (Friday). I voiced my opinion to the owner who is now well aware that I'm not happy about it.
The front of the house is moving along a bit slower than expected. It's taking me forever to strip down all the wood on the front of the house to my satisfaction and clean off the paint drips from the face of the brick. I'm also having to caulk everything and reglaze a few windows. I was hoping to have that all done this weekend but with only having one day off ehhh well see how much further I get. I'm down to chemical stripping which requires a garden hose and water and it's not getting warmer outside.
I haven't gone out since early June and I can't say that I really miss it. I generally just wind up leaving wasted and more depressed than before I showed up. I generally just stay in and drink alone when I want a drink now. Not much different than going out and it's cheaper. Last weekend while getting plants out of the extended cab section of the truck I found a bottle of vodka that I bought about a month ago (I think) and forgot I bought even. Some would say alcoholic, I say escape for a few hours. I've discovered Kettle Orange Vodka now. At least with Kettle I don't wake up feeling like crap after 2-3 drinks.
Most days lately I just want to crawl under a rock someplace for a while and tell the world to go away. I'm not throwing a pitty party just checking in since I haven't posted anything for a while now, hence comments of have been disabled.
We're heading into fall and moms really getting to me again. But at the same time I look at her (like last night) in the garden and see how she's getting. She's 85 and I can see the frailty in her. I'm scared one of these days I'm going to come home and find that she's fallen and broken something. I don't see a home being much further off in all honesty. So that's all been eating at me for a while now. There's only one of me and so much time to take care of everything in. It would be nice to have some help from the family but that's a fucking joke and a half.
Work well what can I say. I think I mentioned someone getting caught stealing property and being fired so that left us down to one installer, two techs and a floater. Well the floater wound up popping poz on a piss test with his parole office (for the third time) and he's in rehab now for three weeks. Probably won't have much of a job to come back to but that isn't my problem. No one really wants to be bothered with him anymore. In the meantime those of us that are left are having to work extra to make up for him being gone. So now I'm down to one day a week off (Friday). I voiced my opinion to the owner who is now well aware that I'm not happy about it.
The front of the house is moving along a bit slower than expected. It's taking me forever to strip down all the wood on the front of the house to my satisfaction and clean off the paint drips from the face of the brick. I'm also having to caulk everything and reglaze a few windows. I was hoping to have that all done this weekend but with only having one day off ehhh well see how much further I get. I'm down to chemical stripping which requires a garden hose and water and it's not getting warmer outside.
I haven't gone out since early June and I can't say that I really miss it. I generally just wind up leaving wasted and more depressed than before I showed up. I generally just stay in and drink alone when I want a drink now. Not much different than going out and it's cheaper. Last weekend while getting plants out of the extended cab section of the truck I found a bottle of vodka that I bought about a month ago (I think) and forgot I bought even. Some would say alcoholic, I say escape for a few hours. I've discovered Kettle Orange Vodka now. At least with Kettle I don't wake up feeling like crap after 2-3 drinks.
Most days lately I just want to crawl under a rock someplace for a while and tell the world to go away. I'm not throwing a pitty party just checking in since I haven't posted anything for a while now, hence comments of have been disabled.