Greatest weekend to date...

[leather_latex37]

ok so friday, i go to Joe's place for the party, drink some beer, win a fish mirror, talk with some random people, saw fat dave yadda yadda.  then i go home and sleep wake up at 8:30 to get ready for work

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[sanpoos]

would you be able to make time in your "rock star" life for a chat with me?

I'm getting sick of tracking you down online. so I'll call you later today. Perhaps if you're not getting drunk at the time we can arrange a meeting finally.

<3

[leather_latex37]

i have tried to make time in my rockstar life to talk with you, but you're with ben. so when you can arrange a small break from him, or at least a pause in activities when i have off work, i will drive anywhere to talk with you. dont put everything on me. i just got sick of being put down to second place.

[sanpoos]

i'm not the kind of person to fight over lj this would be the first kind of frontation put on here from me. but i already called you. and we're meeting tomorrow and such.

[leather_latex37]

ok so we're leaving for madison at 5ish i guess, so ill be back late, and we were thinking of going to kevins. so if we do go to kevins i would be willing to come home talk to you and go down there by myself i guess, i'll give you a call when we figure stuff out. sorry about the change of plans but we all finally figured out what time we were leaving last night. i'll call you

[atomcloudbuddah]

We spend at most 3 nights a week together... and if it's during the week it's until 9pm or 10pm which is a tid bit after you get off work (as you've explained to me recently)...

So in actuality that point has no relevency at all.

I love you Ali, but I'm pretty sick of being the "cause" for all of this "problem" (that shouldn't even matter anyway) in the two of yours friendship...

Maybe evaluate yourself for once and stop making a point to place blame on everyone else... especially me.

And it's not like she hasn't tried to contact you numerous times in the past 2 and a half weeks.

Don't take this agressively because it's not ment to be that way... but this is childish and I'm the easy "target" or "scape goat" for what's really going on.

Peace
-Benny... The Bro (if you still think of me that way)

[atomcloudbuddah]

I hope that you don't take my last comment in harsh words, becase they wern't ment that way.

I just always get this feeling from you, and your words (verbal and text based) that you feel I'm the source of all these problems and it's easy to take it out on and or blame me.

I honestly don't know why you get so upset with me, or (seemingly) place blame on me.

I think of you as a good friend, and I would like to keep thinking of you that way, but for me to do that, I have to also be treated like a human.

I did however have a good time talking with you the other night, and giving you a little hug.

I just want all of this worked out, between you and Jess, you and I, the three of us.

There has to be some way to find a sort of resolve.

I'd hate to see friendships suffer and/or end over something so petty, childish and ill precieved.

With that, I will leave you with revised words in hopes that everything can be worked out appropriately.

<3

Benny

Also, I hope all goes well with you and Jess tomorrow.

[leather_latex37]

ok benny heres the deal. i had no idea that anything i was doing or saying to you was hurting you in any way. im a sarcastic bitch by nature, and i didnt know that you were taking some of my words so seriously, i dont mean to make you feel like shit, i really dont. and as far as me taking a look at myself, i have. this is who i am, and im sorry but i do not change for anyone. my values and beliefs are my own, what i want to do with my extra time is up to me. and as far as my point having no relevancy, all i mean is that when i am with you 2, so its just the 3 of us, you make me feel like shit. try gaining attention from 2 people who are 8+ inches taller than you when they're totally enthralled with each other, its not fun. that was my point, when jessica has other plans with you, its ok if she cant get together with me to talk, but when i have other plans with joe and noah, all of a sudden im the bad person who isnt making time for my friends. i dont like that. but i do apologize nonetheless, so i'll talk to you later big

[atomcloudbuddah]

I've told you quite a few times that what you say, do or try to make a point of makes me feel like shit. You know trying to make me look like an ass in front of everyone else to gain attention on to yourself. I'm not trying to rob your lime light or anything like that.... just being "myself

[leather_latex37]

thank you for basically making me sound like a whore. steveo and i are dating and it probably wont last long. i have to be home sunday so no. have a good time...