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[leaping_spirits]

it's not that i'm not happy. i am.
it's not that i'm not having fun. i am.

i just want something to change.
something big.
i want to have something to talk about.
i want to be excited about something. anything.
maybe a job. maybe a man. maybe a dream.

i don't know what i want, i think that's it.
i'm going nowhere.
other people are excited. things are happening!
my friends are having real lives, it's fantastic.
i'd like to take initiative, but i have none.
i feel so ready to get out of here,
but if i left i wouldn't know where to go.

this seems funny to me, as it was my fault,
but i miss you. i do.
alas, it was too late long ago.
... and so it is.

i'm high but i'm grounded
i'm sane but i'm overwhelmed
i'm lost but i'm hopeful baby
what it all comes down to
is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine.