gina and i offend jews
horray! first show is donedonedone! whew i just feel kind of relived that this day is over and that i am not hateing the musical anymore. like if you would of asked me about it a few days ago i would of siad death to musical i wish i never did it, but now i am happy. Just its probably because everyone is excited about it but everyone was really nice today and helped with my hiar and all huggy and good lucky and stuff and even if they are just pretending for a few days it was still nice. aww and we had a cheesey prayer circle and people talked about the show and were crying because it will be over and just really sad and i am glad i didnt quit because even though i was just danceing and singing a little it was still lots of fun to actually put on the show. I am also that i made a really good friend too (beth). horray! my day started out really bad because i missed frist hour and my teacher is gonna ask why i didnt come to first hour again. the worst of it was in 2nd hour when i had a laywer project thing due and i didnt know it was due and fucking people who had it done didnt vollenteer so i was screwed and didnt have anything written to say so made up a bunch of crap and it was super embarassing and i just wanted to cry. but i told my mom and dad tonight about what happened and that my grade will probably go down cuz of it but just after talking to gina and jessica and my parents i realize it was a mistake even though i was procrastonateing on it but its done and over. this got me thinking though:
first of all i embarass myself at least once a day hitting phones of the wall or saying somthing stupid or embarass someone else by teaseing them about thier crush while he is standing right behind her
i noramally get over my stupidness though because i am used to it but
i ask everyone:
why dont you do somthing embarassing every day? like i know tons of people who go through like a month never doing anything stupid
how do you do it?
seriously
but i do know that most of my friends do somthing stupid everyday so i guess they fall in this same catergory
like katie not to pick you out or anything just i think you know how i feel like for example if gina does somthing stupid its cute or if callie does somthing stupid its just cool but me no, i just look stupid.
why do i do things i know i cant do?
like why do i sign up to be a laywer when i could of done somthing easy
like why must i pretend i am gonna be good at somthing
i also ask
how does everyone remember to do stuff?
i always forget where i put my keys in the morning and my dad says to always put them in one spot when i come home but the thing is i always forget to put them in that one spot when i come home. I dont remember homework mostly because i dont remember the teaching telling us
how do people pay attention?
and
How does everyone get to stuff on time?
i am late to school soo much and i cant remember when i actually came to get someone at the time i told them i would
like arrg how do people manage time i cant do it
i cant be on time
how do people get math?
its so pointless and i cant understand it for the life of me i hate it
how can you actaully like math?
if your good at it and like it just screw you
how do people know what they want in life?
like what colledge they are going to what they are gonna do just man i dont know what my homework is and your all " i am going to michigan i have a 4.0 look at me and now i am going to rub it in your face and be mean to you" WELL SCREW YOU SMART PEOPLE STUPID PEOPLE HAVE MORE FUN
i just really want to slap people right now
first of all i embarass myself at least once a day hitting phones of the wall or saying somthing stupid or embarass someone else by teaseing them about thier crush while he is standing right behind her
i noramally get over my stupidness though because i am used to it but
i ask everyone:
why dont you do somthing embarassing every day? like i know tons of people who go through like a month never doing anything stupid
how do you do it?
seriously
but i do know that most of my friends do somthing stupid everyday so i guess they fall in this same catergory
like katie not to pick you out or anything just i think you know how i feel like for example if gina does somthing stupid its cute or if callie does somthing stupid its just cool but me no, i just look stupid.
why do i do things i know i cant do?
like why do i sign up to be a laywer when i could of done somthing easy
like why must i pretend i am gonna be good at somthing
i also ask
how does everyone remember to do stuff?
i always forget where i put my keys in the morning and my dad says to always put them in one spot when i come home but the thing is i always forget to put them in that one spot when i come home. I dont remember homework mostly because i dont remember the teaching telling us
how do people pay attention?
and
How does everyone get to stuff on time?
i am late to school soo much and i cant remember when i actually came to get someone at the time i told them i would
like arrg how do people manage time i cant do it
i cant be on time
how do people get math?
its so pointless and i cant understand it for the life of me i hate it
how can you actaully like math?
if your good at it and like it just screw you
how do people know what they want in life?
like what colledge they are going to what they are gonna do just man i dont know what my homework is and your all " i am going to michigan i have a 4.0 look at me and now i am going to rub it in your face and be mean to you" WELL SCREW YOU SMART PEOPLE STUPID PEOPLE HAVE MORE FUN
i just really want to slap people right now