Broken
I don't know what is going on in my heart lately- but I find myself broken. I look at the world around me and my heart hurts. God has placed a huge burden in my heart for people- bigger than it has ever been. I see so much hurt around me that it is almost overwhelming. I wonder how I've walked along for so many months without seeing all of this hurt. Have I been so wrapped up in myself, my stuff, and my school work that I completely missed the people that God placed right in front of me? Either way, I see it now, and I must make the most of every opportunity He gives me.
God is breaking me in other areas as well. He's pushing me to be patient with Him first because I am still not sure what is going to happen in my life when May comes. I had plans to go back to New Orleans and continue seminary, but suddenly my heart is telling me different. I don't know if that's what I'll do, or if I'll even finish seminary. I think what happened was that I knew I was called into the ministry, so naturally I just went to seminary when I graduated. But, suddenly God is giving me a new vision that is outside of seminary- it's scary but that just further affirms to me that He is in it...our God is not a safe God. He is also teaching me to be content where I am- to make the most of every moment that I have rather than thinking ahead to tomorrow and what it holds. I need to live in TODAY. So, while that is only a snipit, I just wanted to share with you guys and petition you for prayers...I've got some decisions to make.
God is breaking me in other areas as well. He's pushing me to be patient with Him first because I am still not sure what is going to happen in my life when May comes. I had plans to go back to New Orleans and continue seminary, but suddenly my heart is telling me different. I don't know if that's what I'll do, or if I'll even finish seminary. I think what happened was that I knew I was called into the ministry, so naturally I just went to seminary when I graduated. But, suddenly God is giving me a new vision that is outside of seminary- it's scary but that just further affirms to me that He is in it...our God is not a safe God. He is also teaching me to be content where I am- to make the most of every moment that I have rather than thinking ahead to tomorrow and what it holds. I need to live in TODAY. So, while that is only a snipit, I just wanted to share with you guys and petition you for prayers...I've got some decisions to make.