Nov 10, 2008 12:18
I have a lot of restrictions in my writing I noticed. I fear the cliche, I am afraid to be overly-detailed, I can't repeat myself. I esteem writing which distills the essence of what I am thinking. With all these self-imposed rules I don't write very much and when I start writing I immediately start critiquing everything about it. I have been trying to break these habits and constrictions. Life isn't distilled and sometimes it is all jumbled up. It doesn't have an exact order and at times no logic. Thoughts go by fast and may not be related.
Repetition can be powerful and is sometimes needed. From this I wrote a poem about my father which starts out with the line, stupid mother-f-ker, and I repeat myself. It feels good just to say it and say it again... sometimes that is necessary.
I never wrote about my parents on livejournal before, but they really sucked and they still suck. I don't know how I turned out to be a nice person or maybe I do because I was born older than they were. Thank God I have good friends!