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So yes, now I'm also sick. Not very helpful. Argh- I've been in the apartment all day, haven't left, haven't showered, I feel disgusting and dirty and just a pile of patheticness. Yes that's not a word, but this is my journal so it exists here. Lea is engaged, now probably moving, things are changing again. Things changed a few years ago, then again, and now again. Sometimes change is good. I'm happy for her, because she's happy, but I can see that things will be different, not on purpose, but just because that's how it goes. Can't I be 10 again, or even 11 lol... ah life was simple, different, innocent and pure. How does one accept life? I mean it's sort of thrown at you... it's not your choice, so you have to either accept it or suffer along the way, through it.
Apparently it snowed today in New York and New Jersey. I would have liked to have been there. There was lots of it and it came down very hard, but didn't stick. Would have been nice to just stand there and let the snow come down on me. My father and grandmother were supposed to come here this weekend. That's not happening now. Not quite sure what to do b/c I'll have the entire apartment to myself... and I'll have nothing to do. Maybe clean or catch up on work. Who knows?
Apparently it snowed today in New York and New Jersey. I would have liked to have been there. There was lots of it and it came down very hard, but didn't stick. Would have been nice to just stand there and let the snow come down on me. My father and grandmother were supposed to come here this weekend. That's not happening now. Not quite sure what to do b/c I'll have the entire apartment to myself... and I'll have nothing to do. Maybe clean or catch up on work. Who knows?