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this whole thing is making my skin itch. i can't focus, i can't think straight, nothing makes sense, i don't know what to do. food is the only thing that's safe, but at the same time, it's the enemy. it's just like before...oh god, i thought i'd come so far, how can this be happening? it's not even my fault, it's not self-inflicted. how can i make this all go away? i can't handle it anymore. i feel like i need to go away and never ever ever come back. oh my god it feels just like before