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I can't believe Leslie is gone...
I'm not going to sit here and act like I was her best friend, but I knew her a lot better than most people knew her...Since the 8th grade we shared a lot of moments together...She was my original Beesh...I just can't believe it...It isn't fair!! It isn't fair that she didn't get her transplant in time! It isn't fair that I just found out! I wanted to be at her funeral goddamnit! I'm so mad right now!! I'm so mad because I saw her this week! And this whole year I barely saw her...She looked fine! But when I saw her I think I waved!! Why didn't I give her a big hug for the last time? I feel like...dirt! I feel like she got ripped off! And I know that stupid crap about she's in a better place...blah blah blah...cliche shit...But I can't help it! God...it wasn't her time!!! She had so much to live for!! I have so much memories of her rushing back to me...I just can't believe it.
I'm not going to sit here and act like I was her best friend, but I knew her a lot better than most people knew her...Since the 8th grade we shared a lot of moments together...She was my original Beesh...I just can't believe it...It isn't fair!! It isn't fair that she didn't get her transplant in time! It isn't fair that I just found out! I wanted to be at her funeral goddamnit! I'm so mad right now!! I'm so mad because I saw her this week! And this whole year I barely saw her...She looked fine! But when I saw her I think I waved!! Why didn't I give her a big hug for the last time? I feel like...dirt! I feel like she got ripped off! And I know that stupid crap about she's in a better place...blah blah blah...cliche shit...But I can't help it! God...it wasn't her time!!! She had so much to live for!! I have so much memories of her rushing back to me...I just can't believe it.