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It looks like I'm screwing myself another semester again. I just haven't been able to concentrate at all. I'm just so unmotivated lately, and I think it's just that I am still burnt out. So, because I think I may already have failed one class, I'm contemplating withdrawing this semester and taking a leave of absence until fall.
The only thing really holding me back from just going over to the Dean right now and asking him for the necessary paperwork is TJ's. It isn't Todd, so let that go for a minute. It's that I have some regular clients here who look for me every week or two to help them, and they trust me and are comfortable talking to me, and I feel like I would be abandoning them.
But if I stay, I may very well end up getting dismissed from Rollins, and then I would never be back here.
I contemplated this whole leave thing over break, but then when time came to go back to Rollins, I just went. I didn't know what I was going to do with myself for all those months in between.
Now I think I have a project (aside from finding a better job than Target). There are some things I really want to write, and I think I could get it done if I had some me time. I'm starting to get inspired and thoughtful again. I'm relearning how to use words. I feel like if there's a time to get away from depression and anxiety and stress, this is that moment. I don't even have to tell anyone at Target, so then I would still have all my Mondays and Wednesdays off.
But I don't know how to tell my dad that. Even though last time he told me it was up to me.
And I would have to give Rollins back that refund check, I'm sure.
le sigh. money versus mental health--why does that seem to be the choice lately?
The only thing really holding me back from just going over to the Dean right now and asking him for the necessary paperwork is TJ's. It isn't Todd, so let that go for a minute. It's that I have some regular clients here who look for me every week or two to help them, and they trust me and are comfortable talking to me, and I feel like I would be abandoning them.
But if I stay, I may very well end up getting dismissed from Rollins, and then I would never be back here.
I contemplated this whole leave thing over break, but then when time came to go back to Rollins, I just went. I didn't know what I was going to do with myself for all those months in between.
Now I think I have a project (aside from finding a better job than Target). There are some things I really want to write, and I think I could get it done if I had some me time. I'm starting to get inspired and thoughtful again. I'm relearning how to use words. I feel like if there's a time to get away from depression and anxiety and stress, this is that moment. I don't even have to tell anyone at Target, so then I would still have all my Mondays and Wednesdays off.
But I don't know how to tell my dad that. Even though last time he told me it was up to me.
And I would have to give Rollins back that refund check, I'm sure.
le sigh. money versus mental health--why does that seem to be the choice lately?