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Wow, I'm getting really lax at updating LJ. I guess there isn't as much need anymore; sharing everything with the world can be problematic. But life is going along as it always does. Work, eat, sleep--try and do random things that don't include any of that. I'm frustrated at my lack of progress, but also intensely grateful that I have a job. It's not a job I like and going back to the customer service/call center field has felt like a failure, but I know I can accomplish something with it. I like helping people, it's the management that causes the most stress and sense of helplessness. I'm hoping some other job opportunities I've applied for come through.
At least I'm in a much better place mentally than I was last year. Moving away from areas that caused me stress and unease has helped, distancing myself from those influences that were having a negative impact on my life... and connecting with those that I can relate to, that I can care about and I know they care for me in return. I'm so very grateful for the friendships that I have. Friends are the most precious thing on this earth. They're the family you pick and I love them dearly.
It frightens me to think about the future, what's going to happen next year and the year after that... if I don't get a decent paying job soon (one that'll actually allow me to support myself completely) I get worried. It's made me think about going back to Utah. Bit cheaper there and yes, I still have friends there; one friend in particular that I giggle madly with and plot and can hug and talk with. That trusts me in ways that gives me hope that I can still help those I care about. I love it here, though--even with the high prices and worries. I know one day it'll work out. I haven't given up yet.
One day at a time, really.
At least I'm in a much better place mentally than I was last year. Moving away from areas that caused me stress and unease has helped, distancing myself from those influences that were having a negative impact on my life... and connecting with those that I can relate to, that I can care about and I know they care for me in return. I'm so very grateful for the friendships that I have. Friends are the most precious thing on this earth. They're the family you pick and I love them dearly.
It frightens me to think about the future, what's going to happen next year and the year after that... if I don't get a decent paying job soon (one that'll actually allow me to support myself completely) I get worried. It's made me think about going back to Utah. Bit cheaper there and yes, I still have friends there; one friend in particular that I giggle madly with and plot and can hug and talk with. That trusts me in ways that gives me hope that I can still help those I care about. I love it here, though--even with the high prices and worries. I know one day it'll work out. I haven't given up yet.
One day at a time, really.