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it seems as though time can either speed up or just drag you along all depending on what ur attitude is in life. you can be obviously pessimistic or apathetic abt everything and the world seems like its underwater. on the other hand, if ur optimistic, time circles you and leaves you in constant vertigo. nevertheless, you dont notice any of this until you decide to sit down and really think abt how life has been to you. ironic how i can say this even though i experience the exact opposite. man life is really weird sometimes.
you wanna hear something really weird? i was really exhausted after church yesterday and fell asleep for about two hours. during that period of two hours, i had three dreams. THREE dreams in two hours is insane and it made me even MORE exhausted than i was before. irony strikes again. anyways, during those dreams, there was one person who kept showing up. i would wake up from every one of those dreams and wonder why that person was in every single dream. dont know what God was even try to tell me. yeahhh, its starting to haunt me a lil bit.
im pretty sure God is trying to speak to me lately. the last two sundays messages seem to hit home what really is wrong with me. i can know seem a couple of things that seem to hold me back from truly experiencing God. i seem to have deep secrets i cant let go of. i feel that lately i am falling away from ppl. i really cant seem to connect as much as i use to. im pretty sure that i sometimes isolate myself but i know that the true reason is that i dont allow ppl to really know what im thinking. i find that one of the things i've inherited from my parents is being able to hide your emotions so well that you dont show them until you get home. than you explode...so many things all jumbled up inside my head. i seem quite overwhelmed these days. maybe its time someone shuld know how i truly feel abt certain things...
you wanna hear something really weird? i was really exhausted after church yesterday and fell asleep for about two hours. during that period of two hours, i had three dreams. THREE dreams in two hours is insane and it made me even MORE exhausted than i was before. irony strikes again. anyways, during those dreams, there was one person who kept showing up. i would wake up from every one of those dreams and wonder why that person was in every single dream. dont know what God was even try to tell me. yeahhh, its starting to haunt me a lil bit.
im pretty sure God is trying to speak to me lately. the last two sundays messages seem to hit home what really is wrong with me. i can know seem a couple of things that seem to hold me back from truly experiencing God. i seem to have deep secrets i cant let go of. i feel that lately i am falling away from ppl. i really cant seem to connect as much as i use to. im pretty sure that i sometimes isolate myself but i know that the true reason is that i dont allow ppl to really know what im thinking. i find that one of the things i've inherited from my parents is being able to hide your emotions so well that you dont show them until you get home. than you explode...so many things all jumbled up inside my head. i seem quite overwhelmed these days. maybe its time someone shuld know how i truly feel abt certain things...