A Long Time and Counting
It’s been quite awhile since I’ve talked to Mr. Livejournal. But all is well. I think times have been changing faster than I can keep up with. I sometimes feel I keep getting dragged along, you know? But every time, somehow, someway, God seems to pick me back up and give me that running start I need. The last couple of months have been a challenge of perseverance and patience. Curse those college apps. -__- Nevertheless, at the same time, I realize that through these past months, all those people you’ve known for such a long time will be leaving for college. It’s saddening to think such of things but you can’t do anything about it except keep churning those wheels and keep moving.
Nothing extraordinary has been happening whether in school or my other areas of life. Seems as though everything seems so flat. Probably not true but it feels that way sometimes. I don’t know. I’m too crazy. Anyways, this past Monday, we had mock convention which is where the audience (some ppl shuld have just sat down and shut their mouth) gets to debate about certain issues in today’s society like abortion, gay marriage, affirmative action, Iraqi war, etc. When we began debating on the topic of the separation of church and state, I never knew how lonely it could get, being a Christian. Yes, there are lots and lots of Christians around the world but when you’re on the battlefield; it’s just you and the enemy. Even though I did not succeed in saying that i was a christian, i received valuable advice for the long run. i think the time has come for us christians to stand up for what we believe. time is running out for the non-believers. like our theme for this semester, it is time to stand up in the gap.
for me personally, i i have been struggling to stay afloat my workload in school. i never knew the beginning of senior year could be so hard for me at least. now it seems my standards in school have dramatically dropped from wanting to get an A in the class to just passing the class. i think its because i've kinda already begun to believe that i will be attending an community college. i keep forgetting that the habits i form now will stay with me forever until i make a change. like what the Bible says, you reap what you sow.
for my other areas of life, nothing really to talk about. all is well and that is all i will say cuz i really don't know what i shuld say. so i guess im going to post some lyrics from songs im writing. i'd love to get feedback. =)
(p.s.- i'll be cutting it down cuz its pretty long...)
Title: COMPANION
a loneliness that pierces his heart
a loneliness that rips him apart
every moment every day he feels disconnected
all his thoughts seem like they've been rejected
his mind wanders into the darkest of thoughts
and the wonder of it all is that it aint all bought
everything begins to fade into the sea of shame
now anything, everything ends with a sign of blame
what can he do to change his destiny
no, there is nothing he can do
all he must do is go through this life
with courage and hope, just courage and hope
beyond the lights and glare
the decision of not being scared
is one of which he longs to do
no matter how much it'll make him a fool
even when this fraile heart of his collapses
and even when his ego begins to need glasses
he knows that You will always be there
no matter when, no matter where
yet everytime You watch him
he falls into a rut of mistakes
unable to break free
he calls out just for his own sake
CHORUS
and everytime You are there
always watching everywhere
never letting us out of Your grip
just waiting for us to fall and catching us quick
You are my lover, my Savior, my God
nothing will ever separate us from You
You are my companion, never leaving my side
in times of trouble and hollow pain
our hearts begin to falter with no gain
forces continously fight and collide
this is the battlefield no one is denied
the pollutants of this world have contaminated
this heart of his, which is so easily captivated
seems like there's no hope or love
just a dog eat dog, worldly shove
no matter how filthy we've become
nothing can stop your love to come
your eyes, they glaze through my soul
Nothing extraordinary has been happening whether in school or my other areas of life. Seems as though everything seems so flat. Probably not true but it feels that way sometimes. I don’t know. I’m too crazy. Anyways, this past Monday, we had mock convention which is where the audience (some ppl shuld have just sat down and shut their mouth) gets to debate about certain issues in today’s society like abortion, gay marriage, affirmative action, Iraqi war, etc. When we began debating on the topic of the separation of church and state, I never knew how lonely it could get, being a Christian. Yes, there are lots and lots of Christians around the world but when you’re on the battlefield; it’s just you and the enemy. Even though I did not succeed in saying that i was a christian, i received valuable advice for the long run. i think the time has come for us christians to stand up for what we believe. time is running out for the non-believers. like our theme for this semester, it is time to stand up in the gap.
for me personally, i i have been struggling to stay afloat my workload in school. i never knew the beginning of senior year could be so hard for me at least. now it seems my standards in school have dramatically dropped from wanting to get an A in the class to just passing the class. i think its because i've kinda already begun to believe that i will be attending an community college. i keep forgetting that the habits i form now will stay with me forever until i make a change. like what the Bible says, you reap what you sow.
for my other areas of life, nothing really to talk about. all is well and that is all i will say cuz i really don't know what i shuld say. so i guess im going to post some lyrics from songs im writing. i'd love to get feedback. =)
(p.s.- i'll be cutting it down cuz its pretty long...)
Title: COMPANION
a loneliness that pierces his heart
a loneliness that rips him apart
every moment every day he feels disconnected
all his thoughts seem like they've been rejected
his mind wanders into the darkest of thoughts
and the wonder of it all is that it aint all bought
everything begins to fade into the sea of shame
now anything, everything ends with a sign of blame
what can he do to change his destiny
no, there is nothing he can do
all he must do is go through this life
with courage and hope, just courage and hope
beyond the lights and glare
the decision of not being scared
is one of which he longs to do
no matter how much it'll make him a fool
even when this fraile heart of his collapses
and even when his ego begins to need glasses
he knows that You will always be there
no matter when, no matter where
yet everytime You watch him
he falls into a rut of mistakes
unable to break free
he calls out just for his own sake
CHORUS
and everytime You are there
always watching everywhere
never letting us out of Your grip
just waiting for us to fall and catching us quick
You are my lover, my Savior, my God
nothing will ever separate us from You
You are my companion, never leaving my side
in times of trouble and hollow pain
our hearts begin to falter with no gain
forces continously fight and collide
this is the battlefield no one is denied
the pollutants of this world have contaminated
this heart of his, which is so easily captivated
seems like there's no hope or love
just a dog eat dog, worldly shove
no matter how filthy we've become
nothing can stop your love to come
your eyes, they glaze through my soul