I watched you change ... Into the the fly ... I looked away .... and you were on fire
No more laziness.
I enrolled in a Science course yesterday at Suffolk. Goin get my learn on once again. Lately I'd been feeling so useless and wasteful, I had to do something to break this. Granted going to one course isn't much, but I'm not going to push myself. Everytime I do that I wind up in a hospital somewhere from a panic attack, or a near heart attack, so fuck that. I think it'll do me good to have some intellectual stimuli, other than the good people I talk to and spend my time with each day of course. I have all the time in the world to do really well, and I love Science (I had straight As in Science when I was in High School) so hopefully I'll fall right into this.
Got together with Scott last night for some good old fashion man massage! Yeah, that's right, we worked on music. We went through a couple of our older songs and found new life in them. I think I have to agree that Hands Over Mouths is our best one. I changed to vocals up quite a bit, and the whole song sounded much better. Though, it eats shit that Scott has neighbors right above him, so we can't crank it out like we want, but we'll make due.
In medical news, one of the holes in my stomach seems to have closed up for good! It's been closed for several days now, usually if it's not going to stay closed they open within a day or two of closing. So that's a step in the right direction. Also, I've gained more weight. I've gained about 7 pounds in the last two weeks or so. I'm gonna be fat, and it's gonna rule. Not not really, I"ve been really paying close attention to what I eat, drinking my shakes, taking my vitamins, staying away what foods I'm allergic to, and all around just trying to get myself on the right track.
It's time to start enjoying myself again! Instead of sitting here, wasting away in my computer chair each day smoking pot and playing DOA online and sleeping till 2 in the afternoon, I've started pushing myself to actually do shit. Yeah I know, congradulations Steve, do you want a fucking medal asshole? No, I just want to feel like a normal person for a change. I'm tired of feeling like "the sick boy" having people secretly not take me seriously, people fucking me over things that are beyond my control, and doing myself an enormous amount of injustice by not having fun.
Time to go pound some InflamX ... hahahaha!
I enrolled in a Science course yesterday at Suffolk. Goin get my learn on once again. Lately I'd been feeling so useless and wasteful, I had to do something to break this. Granted going to one course isn't much, but I'm not going to push myself. Everytime I do that I wind up in a hospital somewhere from a panic attack, or a near heart attack, so fuck that. I think it'll do me good to have some intellectual stimuli, other than the good people I talk to and spend my time with each day of course. I have all the time in the world to do really well, and I love Science (I had straight As in Science when I was in High School) so hopefully I'll fall right into this.
Got together with Scott last night for some good old fashion man massage! Yeah, that's right, we worked on music. We went through a couple of our older songs and found new life in them. I think I have to agree that Hands Over Mouths is our best one. I changed to vocals up quite a bit, and the whole song sounded much better. Though, it eats shit that Scott has neighbors right above him, so we can't crank it out like we want, but we'll make due.
In medical news, one of the holes in my stomach seems to have closed up for good! It's been closed for several days now, usually if it's not going to stay closed they open within a day or two of closing. So that's a step in the right direction. Also, I've gained more weight. I've gained about 7 pounds in the last two weeks or so. I'm gonna be fat, and it's gonna rule. Not not really, I"ve been really paying close attention to what I eat, drinking my shakes, taking my vitamins, staying away what foods I'm allergic to, and all around just trying to get myself on the right track.
It's time to start enjoying myself again! Instead of sitting here, wasting away in my computer chair each day smoking pot and playing DOA online and sleeping till 2 in the afternoon, I've started pushing myself to actually do shit. Yeah I know, congradulations Steve, do you want a fucking medal asshole? No, I just want to feel like a normal person for a change. I'm tired of feeling like "the sick boy" having people secretly not take me seriously, people fucking me over things that are beyond my control, and doing myself an enormous amount of injustice by not having fun.
Time to go pound some InflamX ... hahahaha!