Bits and pieces
I did not get up today. Like, at all. My head was killing me, my stomach was threatening to reject its nourishment and basically screamed at me, you are NOT moving today. My roommate kept walking in and laughing, because I really HADN'T moved.
My horoscope today said it would take me a while to wake up today, but once I did I would be useful. My roommate laughed again when I told her that.
When I did start to wake up, I wanted to put on my white Confirmation dress. I wanted to paint my toenails and put on makeup. I wanted to pick flowers for my bedside. And I wanted to die. I didn't really want to die in a dramatic, suicidal way. Because I know what it is like to be suicidal, it is a dark, rainy, alone place. Today, no. It was beautiful. It was like, I want to run away while lying perfectly still, and being alone is far from lonely. It was like, here I am, I have made myself as pure as I can, bring me with You. Run away with me.
I am going home on Friday, just until Saturday. Just to get away from the ubiquitous headache that is Smith during reading period. Nancy usually goes to Eric's, but she just saw him, so I don't know where she's going this year. She is affected really strongly by the mad pressure.
I am studying with Kernan today! La di da.
I want to know what I am doing this summer. I want to know if I am going to be HCA next year. I am basically competing with Alicia, which is weird, because it must be hard to Lisa to know who to support. I know Alicia would do a good job. I really think I would too. Emma is taking over my job next year. She is not gonna have a co-work-coordinator, which is probably good for her. I liked having Erika to work with, though. We could bounce ideas off each other much more easily that way.
This heat is just so unbearable. I am starting to wonder if I have allergies. I will take some dayquil tomorrow. Then I will get to bounce offa da walls! Yay!
My horoscope today said it would take me a while to wake up today, but once I did I would be useful. My roommate laughed again when I told her that.
When I did start to wake up, I wanted to put on my white Confirmation dress. I wanted to paint my toenails and put on makeup. I wanted to pick flowers for my bedside. And I wanted to die. I didn't really want to die in a dramatic, suicidal way. Because I know what it is like to be suicidal, it is a dark, rainy, alone place. Today, no. It was beautiful. It was like, I want to run away while lying perfectly still, and being alone is far from lonely. It was like, here I am, I have made myself as pure as I can, bring me with You. Run away with me.
I am going home on Friday, just until Saturday. Just to get away from the ubiquitous headache that is Smith during reading period. Nancy usually goes to Eric's, but she just saw him, so I don't know where she's going this year. She is affected really strongly by the mad pressure.
I am studying with Kernan today! La di da.
I want to know what I am doing this summer. I want to know if I am going to be HCA next year. I am basically competing with Alicia, which is weird, because it must be hard to Lisa to know who to support. I know Alicia would do a good job. I really think I would too. Emma is taking over my job next year. She is not gonna have a co-work-coordinator, which is probably good for her. I liked having Erika to work with, though. We could bounce ideas off each other much more easily that way.
This heat is just so unbearable. I am starting to wonder if I have allergies. I will take some dayquil tomorrow. Then I will get to bounce offa da walls! Yay!