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I have felt alternately very happy and very angry today. I was angry in the morning. I needed to print out twenty copies of an abstract before my presentation (I had ten minutes), and this girl gave me a lecture about how we could only print one copy and threatened to confiscate all my papers, which really pissed me off first of all because I hadn't slept more than three hours, but more because of the hypocrisy of the situation. You are allowed to print out one copy of a thirty-page paper, but Heaven forbid you print out thirty copies of a one-page paper.
Idiocy.
But my presentation went well. Kernan stuck her tongue out at me at the beginning of my talk, which helped put me at ease much more. So I guess the talk went fine. Kernan did bamboo! I was so amused. That was my topic last semester. I could have done the talk for her. It is especially funny because she wanted to do water chestnuts for her presentation, but I had picked that topic already.
But oh what a beautiful day. I went out and picked flowers for Jes and Meg. And we went on a field trip to Nasami Farms and I didn't even get sunburned. Megan (a different one) and I spent our fifteen minutes of free time down by the river, wading, drinking the water. It was most pleasant.
I had to send out a mean phonemail today about putting a work freeze on for reading period and finals. I had to threaten people with blocking them from being hired next year. But I gues there wasn't much other choice. I have such a headache. I wish Marianne hadn't taken all of my Advil.
I have been having all these flashbacks today. To second grade up through this afternoon. All the stupid things I have ever done. All my mistakes. Crashing down on me. I very nearly broke down crying yesterday. It's just like having someone kicking me and insulting me while I am curled up on the floor in pain. And I don't think I can take it much longer.
Argh. Need to call my mommy.
Idiocy.
But my presentation went well. Kernan stuck her tongue out at me at the beginning of my talk, which helped put me at ease much more. So I guess the talk went fine. Kernan did bamboo! I was so amused. That was my topic last semester. I could have done the talk for her. It is especially funny because she wanted to do water chestnuts for her presentation, but I had picked that topic already.
But oh what a beautiful day. I went out and picked flowers for Jes and Meg. And we went on a field trip to Nasami Farms and I didn't even get sunburned. Megan (a different one) and I spent our fifteen minutes of free time down by the river, wading, drinking the water. It was most pleasant.
I had to send out a mean phonemail today about putting a work freeze on for reading period and finals. I had to threaten people with blocking them from being hired next year. But I gues there wasn't much other choice. I have such a headache. I wish Marianne hadn't taken all of my Advil.
I have been having all these flashbacks today. To second grade up through this afternoon. All the stupid things I have ever done. All my mistakes. Crashing down on me. I very nearly broke down crying yesterday. It's just like having someone kicking me and insulting me while I am curled up on the floor in pain. And I don't think I can take it much longer.
Argh. Need to call my mommy.