freaking tired.
I am so emotionally exhausted I could just sleep for a day I think.
Husband is still out of work. I attempted to get food stamps for the month of March, to help out. I don't mind living on ramen and kraft mac n' cheese, and have done it many times as has Husband. But the baby has other needs, and cannot live on such foods. I can afford to get baby food and the like, but then Husband and I won't have gas money. I especially need gas, as I work everyday. Husband just needs to get around town to leave applications and resumes so his need isn't as dire. We had to use his last paycheck from the ex-job to get a carseat as the baby had grown out of the infant seat, so that killed any extra money we had. I had to use my check to catch up utilities and get some groceries, and this next check is effectively gone to rent and to pay off the pawn shop where my heirloom rings are currently residing.
I am just in a horrid place right now. I phoned a food pantry, and they are only open in the afternoons, and I have to go around town to collect paperwork and information before I can go, and since I only have a 15 minute break this afternoon and used half my lunch to get there to find this out, looks like I won't be able to get that help this weekend. We got denied food stamps because the state of Missouri looks at your gross pay (before taxes) and since Husband's last check came in March, it just put us over the limit. What the fuck kind of sense does that make to look at money we DON'T have?
Things have to start getting better. I keep telling myself that, but I don't know that I fully believe that considering how much the past 3 months have fully sucked. It's just one thing after another. Dad cannot help as Eric has completely fucked up his financial situation. God forbid he just LEAVE he has to make everyone's lives hell first.
I hate to sound like a whiney pissy thing, but I needed to vent. Now I have to go cover phones at noon, so I am off.
Husband is still out of work. I attempted to get food stamps for the month of March, to help out. I don't mind living on ramen and kraft mac n' cheese, and have done it many times as has Husband. But the baby has other needs, and cannot live on such foods. I can afford to get baby food and the like, but then Husband and I won't have gas money. I especially need gas, as I work everyday. Husband just needs to get around town to leave applications and resumes so his need isn't as dire. We had to use his last paycheck from the ex-job to get a carseat as the baby had grown out of the infant seat, so that killed any extra money we had. I had to use my check to catch up utilities and get some groceries, and this next check is effectively gone to rent and to pay off the pawn shop where my heirloom rings are currently residing.
I am just in a horrid place right now. I phoned a food pantry, and they are only open in the afternoons, and I have to go around town to collect paperwork and information before I can go, and since I only have a 15 minute break this afternoon and used half my lunch to get there to find this out, looks like I won't be able to get that help this weekend. We got denied food stamps because the state of Missouri looks at your gross pay (before taxes) and since Husband's last check came in March, it just put us over the limit. What the fuck kind of sense does that make to look at money we DON'T have?
Things have to start getting better. I keep telling myself that, but I don't know that I fully believe that considering how much the past 3 months have fully sucked. It's just one thing after another. Dad cannot help as Eric has completely fucked up his financial situation. God forbid he just LEAVE he has to make everyone's lives hell first.
I hate to sound like a whiney pissy thing, but I needed to vent. Now I have to go cover phones at noon, so I am off.