ANALYZING PAINFUL THOUGHTS
I just realized that this is going to be my first entry for the year. Too bad it's going to be emotionally drooling, whatever that means. Drooling is such a nice word. Note to self: should use it more often.
Drooling.
I started the year without a planner. It was really sad. I kept forgetting birthday's and meetings, it was HELL! But now I've got one, from powerbooks, but the problem with this one is that it only has 28 days in a month! God, what do you expect, it was free! But still, 28 days! Sayang, it looks REALLY nice! Anyway, will be using it for now, while the Centennial planner isn't out yet.
Moving on stronger and brighter things.
Feeling weird today. I took two exams today, without studying for any of it. I know I failed the first one because it was PURE AND UTTER HELL! I should have done more browsing, that way I could've bluffed my way through the essay's and still get a passing grade. Fat chance of that happening now, at least it's only 25%. I've got 30% in the bag already. So let's see, you calculate, okay? a 5 for the exam, so it's 25% plus a 1 for the other stuff, that's 30%. DO THE MATH! Probably a 3, more or less, so far is my average for Archaeology.
The second exam, Anthro123. Was a bit better. Totally wasn't what I was expecting. Thought it would be much harder, but it turned our alright. Was able to answer most of it, and should get a decent grade, probably a 2.
I hate it. It's my fault I didn't study so no reason to complain if I fail. But of course I hate failing and so, will just have to live with it. I'm allowed to get a 3 one time or another! Haha! I just realized how petty i'm being.
To seldom glance at flash movements.
So if you were to choose betwen your many orgs, which one would you put first?
Was asked that question. Shit.
Part of my discomfort
Don't you just hate asking yourself questions you have no idea how to answer. Or asking yourself questions that expect instant answers but can only be answered in a long period of time.
Quit it. Shake it off.
With uncertain futures we look on, move on, hold on and strive. All people want of you is your happiness, so what does that mean? Not trying to sound philosophical, just saying, it's irritating.
Right now I'm having more fun studying all my other subjects except for my major. I guess that means i'm not happy? But i don't want to shift. I just want things to be more interesting. To talk about topics more applicable to stuff. I can't even explain it.
Don't get me wrong. The professors are interesting, my classmates are fun, i get the subject matter fine. It's not you, it's me! haha!
The drive's not there. I need to find a spark.