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Well, seventeen kinda snuck up on me here. I remember being really excited for 16. Now I want to stop time. I wish I could make my own time, and then I could use it whenever I wanted. I could sell it too. 'Hey, you wanna buy some time?' All jokes aside, I definitely am NOT ready for 17. I feel like my youth is slipping away from me, and I have no control over it. I can't stop it. I can't change it. I could try and make the most of it, but there'll always be those things I wish I'd done differently. Sometimes I just feel like life, in of itself, is pointless. How society forces us to become something, or at least influences us in too many aspects. We grow up, earn money, only to have to give half of it back to the government, have kids, raise kids, go to work, come home, sleep, go to work, come home, sleep. retire, grow old, and die. That's not how I want my life to be. I'm not exactly sure what I want, and I feel like I'm being forced to figure it out, and in my rush to figure it out in time I'm feeling more and more overwhelmed. I don't want to get stuck in a life I hate. When I was younger, time crawled by, and I wished for it to go faster. Now, all of a sudden it seems to be in fast forward. Summer seems shorter and shorter each year. I mean, really, two months? That used to be an ETERNITY!!!! I'm going to have to become a fucking hermit if I want to do well in school next year. No, I will, because otherwise, I can always just do homework later right? WRONG. More like never. God, I really don't like a lot of the people at our school. I don't know, High school just seems so rediculous to me.
Wow, I totally went off on some unrelated tangent. Back to the big 1-7. [I can't even imagine being 50....it's so......old. I don't ever want to be old... :( ] I am totally excited for my birthday. It's really hard being the one in suspense, but everyone goes though that during pre-birthday I think. I don't really care what we do, as long as everyone has a good time...regardless, it would be awesome if everyone could come, but if you really don't want to come then don't come. I really don't want any party poopers. :(
Anyways, My head seems to have run out of words to put here, so now, Becca, I will call you. Just like I said I would. :)
Wow, I totally went off on some unrelated tangent. Back to the big 1-7. [I can't even imagine being 50....it's so......old. I don't ever want to be old... :( ] I am totally excited for my birthday. It's really hard being the one in suspense, but everyone goes though that during pre-birthday I think. I don't really care what we do, as long as everyone has a good time...regardless, it would be awesome if everyone could come, but if you really don't want to come then don't come. I really don't want any party poopers. :(
Anyways, My head seems to have run out of words to put here, so now, Becca, I will call you. Just like I said I would. :)