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Lately I've been trying to adjust to this new "life". The so called wonderful single life...I mean im not miserable all the time, i just miss the comforted feeling of having that particular person there for you unconditionally.
Me and david have decided to call it quits..and honestly i think its permanent. I love this little ball of crazy more than anyone and i hope this is the right decicison for both of our sakes. I duno, inside i still hope hope hope that we work things out and come to our senses! I still see him, which probally doesnt help..but i can't help it. Hes the only person out there that can make me go from -675 below shit feeling, to a whopping +18763876329823 wonderous feeling in millaseconds. I think i really will love him forever, or at least i will remember him forever. Hes the kind of person who will stay in my heart through every relationship.
i dont even wanna get into that...i couldnt even think of being with somebody else..its like i want to fast foward time. get us back together and live happily ever after! I wish there wasnt so much bullshit between us, when we dont fight we have the most perfect relationship. But when we do fight...its fucking war. we have this weird extreme relationship. There is no happy medium whatsoever. were either happy, or pist at one another.
But i guess reguardless of it all, i love him more than anything. We fight, over stupid shit...it's just what we do..and i wish that was accepted. I know i could better myself for him in more ways than one..so maybe some time with ourselves can be good. I just hope to never loose him <3
onto non depressing things, schools fucking gay. its like im not motivated to go at all. Now that its finaly that im going to drexel all i can do is focus on that time period. I cant even get up to go to class anymore. ive already missed 3 of each class...so hopefully shitbag excuses will work somehow.
i finally got my job back, at a different store this time. a bigger better and friendlier one at that. Im real happy with that, i dont think ill hate my job anymore.
colleen should be swinging on by tonight to visit me, i told my moms id watch my little sis this evening so she could go to some club with my dad, i swear they are swingers. or just freaks.
<3
my birfday is tuesday the 7th. the big 2-0...wooooooo! how exciting....too bad its the same as turning 19. i feel like im repeting last year.
my ink appt is next sunday with danny, thats going to be a great day. i love having the hookup son.
and spring is on the looose. fuck yes. i pray for no more snow.
peace n love buckets.
Me and david have decided to call it quits..and honestly i think its permanent. I love this little ball of crazy more than anyone and i hope this is the right decicison for both of our sakes. I duno, inside i still hope hope hope that we work things out and come to our senses! I still see him, which probally doesnt help..but i can't help it. Hes the only person out there that can make me go from -675 below shit feeling, to a whopping +18763876329823 wonderous feeling in millaseconds. I think i really will love him forever, or at least i will remember him forever. Hes the kind of person who will stay in my heart through every relationship.
i dont even wanna get into that...i couldnt even think of being with somebody else..its like i want to fast foward time. get us back together and live happily ever after! I wish there wasnt so much bullshit between us, when we dont fight we have the most perfect relationship. But when we do fight...its fucking war. we have this weird extreme relationship. There is no happy medium whatsoever. were either happy, or pist at one another.
But i guess reguardless of it all, i love him more than anything. We fight, over stupid shit...it's just what we do..and i wish that was accepted. I know i could better myself for him in more ways than one..so maybe some time with ourselves can be good. I just hope to never loose him <3
onto non depressing things, schools fucking gay. its like im not motivated to go at all. Now that its finaly that im going to drexel all i can do is focus on that time period. I cant even get up to go to class anymore. ive already missed 3 of each class...so hopefully shitbag excuses will work somehow.
i finally got my job back, at a different store this time. a bigger better and friendlier one at that. Im real happy with that, i dont think ill hate my job anymore.
colleen should be swinging on by tonight to visit me, i told my moms id watch my little sis this evening so she could go to some club with my dad, i swear they are swingers. or just freaks.
<3
my birfday is tuesday the 7th. the big 2-0...wooooooo! how exciting....too bad its the same as turning 19. i feel like im repeting last year.
my ink appt is next sunday with danny, thats going to be a great day. i love having the hookup son.
and spring is on the looose. fuck yes. i pray for no more snow.
peace n love buckets.