The Love I'm Searching For.
tonight was absolutely amazing. everything that hurt doesnt hurt anymore, everything is okay now. and i have the most amazing people in my life, whether it be acquaintences or old friends or family i havent seen or spoken to for 11 years. tonight i went with boo to the anything but magikist farewell show. we were late... but its okay dimitri was still sunshine. i saw so many new and old faces, and im so glad i went. some i wanted so badly to talk to and just to say its okay now, we can be friends.. but i just couldnt. i know in my heart. sebastijan came=big smiles miles wide. i met paul tonight, wow . beautiful , more so than i expected. tonight has been the best ever, naveed i havent seen in so long, gees i miss him... and then John Paul came up to me... we havent seen each other in i dont know how long, my last memory of him was at a funeral when i was 12 years old... JP is my cousin, he recognized me... it was a moment caught in the tangles of time... we are getting together soon because i have so much to tell him. casey is staying with me tomorrow night... well, ill be back RETAl... Weezer... sebastijan reminds me so much of Rivers. im lucky. if you were gay youd be with Rivers... not Wilson. love you still, and always. .me