Head over heals...yes she's in love...
I had never been so anxious in my life.
Seeing someone you love hooked up to tubes running in and out of their veins, knowing they are having life changing surgery is never a pleasant experience. The fact that I was able to be with him through it all, up until they had to put him under was one of the most overwhelmingly powerful things I've ever gone through with anyone.
Also, I've managed to burn 5 pounds off since the day of Danny's surgery which was Thursday. You do the math. It was all nerves I swear. Since the surgery he has to sleep upright in the good ol' tan, courderoy Lay-Z-Boy chair out in the living room. I miss being able to know he is beside me as I fall asleep at night; such a solid sense of security. I've managed however to strategically place the couch cusions upon the living room floor next to the recliner for a bed. I just want to be as close as possible to him, especially now after the surgery.
Having these 5 days off of work to just take care of Danny has allowed me to finally get a lot of thoughts organized in my head. It made me realize that being in love with someone is NEVER easy...anger...tears...laughter... It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I am sure of it.
Seeing someone you love hooked up to tubes running in and out of their veins, knowing they are having life changing surgery is never a pleasant experience. The fact that I was able to be with him through it all, up until they had to put him under was one of the most overwhelmingly powerful things I've ever gone through with anyone.
Also, I've managed to burn 5 pounds off since the day of Danny's surgery which was Thursday. You do the math. It was all nerves I swear. Since the surgery he has to sleep upright in the good ol' tan, courderoy Lay-Z-Boy chair out in the living room. I miss being able to know he is beside me as I fall asleep at night; such a solid sense of security. I've managed however to strategically place the couch cusions upon the living room floor next to the recliner for a bed. I just want to be as close as possible to him, especially now after the surgery.
Having these 5 days off of work to just take care of Danny has allowed me to finally get a lot of thoughts organized in my head. It made me realize that being in love with someone is NEVER easy...anger...tears...laughter... It's when you want to be together despite it all. That's when you truly love another. I am sure of it.