Mixed Day
Things just got to a bit of a head this morning. I was just not coping with Hallie, and was crying while making breakfast. Felt like there was no escape.
Later when catching the bus into uni, I decided to swap to a bus to Toronto instead and went to the library there. Not only did I find a book on graphic novel design, but three really cool graphic novels that I'd been waiting to read for a while (including ROSE). I felt optomistic, but the 1 hour bus trip back to the uni sort of knocked that out of me. Met Luke in the bar on the Hill, and instead going to a post grad seminar I stayed trivia with Luke, Ben and the rest of the gang from Spectrum. I also bumped into Sharon, who I last saw on my Library course quite a while ago (but who now works at the uni). So far so good, but somehow I spilt a bottle of drink in my backpack. All the graphic novels and a whole packet of notes were wet at one end, and I had to remove everyone else from the backpack anyway because it was still wet. So irritating!
Had long chats with Luke and Kirk and some others in Spectrum about my research question and how I felt trapped and unable to get away anywhere from home. I may have a new question, but I need to think about it first. K & M popped into NUSA and I had a quick chat with them about how stressed I felt. Caught the bus home after a stay at Glendale, and had a longer chat with K, who suggested that i take a leave of absence from my studies until I can focus again.
Maybe. Feel tired and exhausted. Kevin asked me "What makes you live" and to be honoest, I couldn't think of a answer.
TIRED