Friday Stresses
I'm taking Alprim and Rafen. The first is for a UTI that I think I never got rid of, and the second I was told was a "muscle relaxant" though apparently it's really Ibuprofen. Why do I need a muscle relaxant? To each the problem with the spur, which apparently is growing along a tendon or ligament or some such. Anyway, yesterday after I saw my G.P. I had a very early dinner at Westfields in Kotara, and took one tablet of each afterwards. Felt more than a little odd, like I wasn't quite there. Not necessarily an unpleasant feeling (for once). Anyway, today I took these just after breakfast. Didn't feel anything peculiar right away but I did when I went to the university. Went to a Spectrum meeting followed by a visit to the counsellor and then an intense conversation with a psycho pastry maker about comics on the veranda of Bar on the Hill. During all of which I feel hot flushed, peaky and "emotional". It may be the combination that's doing this to me, and it's brought on with exercise. Or not, as the case might be.
Was on verge of crying over lunch (a late free one at NUSA that was tasty and filling) and at Spectrum. It may have been general frustration, loneliness or the drugs (or all three). I wasn't keen on an idea at the meeting - a "genderfuck ball" where one would wear some clothes of the other gender. Last time I did something like that I was just treated as a man
You'd think that maybe 10 years after surgery that wouldn't be an issue, but I guess it is. I get very tired of "standing out" in the crowd the wrong way.
One thing that came out in my counselling session was that mostly, I have no social life. The main reason for this is I have no car, and local public transport to mu home stops after 7pm. When I used to have a car I could go to places like "The G" and Necropolis if I wanted. I could drive it to a train station, go down to Sydney, and then come back in the early morning and drive it home. Even with the electric scooter I had for a year that was possible (though for my weight it was under powered). Some folk have suggested that I right a bicycle to social events, but I don't think they've thought that through. Would you want to turn up to an exhibition opening or club dripping with sweat? Bicycles are not practical for getting to social events (unless the event has something to do with bikes). Likewise, while I could get a taxi home, that generally costs about $20+ to go about 12 km, and over $35 to get home from the CBD.
One idea that I keep thinking of is getting either a postie bike, or moped/scooter to run about in.
Probably wouldn't use it to go grocery shopping with, but it would get me to uni, to the CBD and back, and to and fro a train station like my old station wagon did. And then at least, I might have a (possibility of a) social life. Getting out the house a bit more might reduce the frustration of staying at home all the time.
Was on verge of crying over lunch (a late free one at NUSA that was tasty and filling) and at Spectrum. It may have been general frustration, loneliness or the drugs (or all three). I wasn't keen on an idea at the meeting - a "genderfuck ball" where one would wear some clothes of the other gender. Last time I did something like that I was just treated as a man
You'd think that maybe 10 years after surgery that wouldn't be an issue, but I guess it is. I get very tired of "standing out" in the crowd the wrong way.
One thing that came out in my counselling session was that mostly, I have no social life. The main reason for this is I have no car, and local public transport to mu home stops after 7pm. When I used to have a car I could go to places like "The G" and Necropolis if I wanted. I could drive it to a train station, go down to Sydney, and then come back in the early morning and drive it home. Even with the electric scooter I had for a year that was possible (though for my weight it was under powered). Some folk have suggested that I right a bicycle to social events, but I don't think they've thought that through. Would you want to turn up to an exhibition opening or club dripping with sweat? Bicycles are not practical for getting to social events (unless the event has something to do with bikes). Likewise, while I could get a taxi home, that generally costs about $20+ to go about 12 km, and over $35 to get home from the CBD.
One idea that I keep thinking of is getting either a postie bike, or moped/scooter to run about in.
Probably wouldn't use it to go grocery shopping with, but it would get me to uni, to the CBD and back, and to and fro a train station like my old station wagon did. And then at least, I might have a (possibility of a) social life. Getting out the house a bit more might reduce the frustration of staying at home all the time.