OFF-LINE
My Masters is not going anywhere. I should be at a certain post right now, but I just can't focus, and am in a hideous pit of lethargy, despair, and depression. It's important to me and I just feel paralysed and both Facebook and to a lesser degree Live Journal just seem to divert the time and energy out of me into frivolous pursuits.
Last week I read chapter 16 of Trans People in Love and it was written (partly) about things that happened in the USA when I visited there back in 2006. It put one thing about that trip in strong perspective, and as a result I feel even more lost, lonely and loathsome than I normally do. Just another piece of meat I guess.
I was briefly suicidal yesterday and whenever I feel like that I need to withdraw from such things for a while. I'll be away from Facebook and Live Journal until further notice. If you want to know why, read any of my self-therapy posts.