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so, its 2005. yay. what does that mean? another year of fights, lies, disagreements, relationships (wait, scratch that. that wont happen), heart-breaking (ya, thats more like it), jared, shit, parties, decisions, obsessions, depression, anxiety, getting further away from my best friends... etc.
so thts only some of the negatives. lets see the positives. sheri and chelsea, taryn, melanie and arin (but theyre also in the negative list, so tht cancels eachother out), charactors, camp...
goin thru each thing on the positive list:
Sheri and Chelsea: probably the best thing that has happened to me since my whole falling out with my old group of friends. i was so depressed around that time, but they didnt care (or maybe they didnt notice). theyve stood by me n helped me with all my problems since weve become friends. Its unbelievable that weve only been friends really since the first day of school this year. im just as close with them as i am with my best friends of 3 years. thanks grls, i luv u both
Taryn: the next thing thats happened to me. it would be so much better if i saw you more then once per week. taryn, uve helped me so much with everything ive gone thru... especially with guys. u help me realize what my life is worth, and u keep me thinking logically. uve helped me so much, and i know that if i ever have any problem, i know that i can run to u n ull be there. thanks so much tar, i luv u
Melanie n Arin: before this school year, we were really close. mel n rin, after all weve been thru together or seperately, u both know that no matter what happens, no matter what ppl say, no matter who talks stupid shit bout u, ill always love you both, n ull always be my best friends. i love you 2 to the moon and back and i hope that this year will be better then the last. luv u 4ever
Charactors: maybe its becuz i have a better part this year, maybe its becuz ive known almost every1 for at least 1 yeer, or maybe its just cuz ppl change, but this year at charactors is amazing for me. the highlight of my week is going to charactors and seeing all of you guys and being with you. even if its only 4 2 hours, n megan or wayne or sharon is always screamin @ us 2 stop talkin, its amazing. charactors is what keeps me going, and i love everyone there. thanks 2 last years tom sawyer cast 4 an amazing year with u, n amazing 2 performances. Lets make this year even better!!!
Camp: wow, i cannot even begin 2 xplain how unbelievable camp was this year. i changed so much as a person thanx 2 every1 in Magshimim '04, and especially evry1 in Cabin28. i luv all of you so much, and everytime i hear sum1 talking about their camp, i think about how unbelievable this year was. i think about the last night at camp, fight club, Yom T'O, Wisconsin intercamp, A-TRAIN, but mainly i think of Melanie Sklaire (oh melanie, how we all luv u :P) thanks 2 all of Magshimim ’04 for an amazing summer, but Alonim ’05 will be the best in historAY!!!
well, i started off this entry in a really pissed off mood, but after writing all that about sheri, chels, tar, mel, rin, charactors n camp, its really hard 2 be pissed... no matter what, there are always ppl who love you and ppl who care.
Whenever you're feeling down, all you have to do is look for the light at the end of the tunnel. I promise that it's there. You may have to search for a while, but it will come. And when it does, it will be so bright, that it will change your life forever. And if along the way, you see a hand reaching out to you, grab it. Let them help you and guide you. If you have two different tunnels you can take, take the one you think will lead you to the light. But no matter what, never give up. Because remember, someone will always believe in you. Someone will always care for you. Someone will always love you. That someone will always be me.
- Laur -