Update
I write this with the firm belief that no one will see it. I guess lj isn't very popular anymore. in any event..
I have to admit, love does some weird shit to people. I never thought I would feel it again after well.. I'm just gonna not get into it lol. in any event, I do hope that this turns into something. I do believe that she is the last hope I have for ever finding someone in this life.
Have any of you ever wondered why it is that certain people never find anyone? is it fate? is it because they missed out on something and are now paying the price for it? could t be because of something you've done in the past *which is why I think I have been single for all these years but to bring up that particular scenario of my life would force me to relive an event close to 14 years old*? who knows. I just earnestly hope that this is it for me. I have to hope, I have no choice. I went to the doc today. turns out I've gained 40 lbs. he's lowered my life expectency to 24 if I'm lucky. I hope he's trying to scare me but when I wake up at night not being able to breathe well... I guess he's being serious.
anyways, whoever still reads this, I hope you have a hapy thanksgiving.
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