This is pissing me off
I finally get better, and after 3 days of stressing, crying, and not sleep, yes I havent slept in 3 days.
I am starting to get sick agian, because I spent the last week working out things with Julia, helping her stress, depression and shit, and then I get my own stress with Richard and after things get settled and fine, I get fucking sick agian!!. I finally slept last night, but not that long, a couple of hours and thats it. I seriously think I am losing my mind, I feel like everyday, and every year I get older, my women hormones and emotions just take over even more, and I cant handle them, I dont know how to satisfy them, I dont know how to control them, and I feel like I am losing my mind.
I want to just do things to take my mind off of thinking, finish my last 3 papers for school, then sign up to college right away to hopefully just block everything, cause i cant stop crying because my emotions are just overwhelming me so bad, I am at a dead end brick wall on what the fuck to do anymore and I dispise it greatly.
I need to get my car, I need out and I need to start my life. I feel like just dropping a handfull of friends and keep the ones that I have known since middle school, and just start all over, but I know I cant do it, I cant leave the friends I have cause I love them all with all my heart...
Latoya Mist