How frustrated with thyself
TOday I went to try wedding dresses on and I guess since I have been looking at styles online and catalogs I expected to look like the models. Well, no big surprise I didn't. I only liked two dresses out of the eight I tried on. Even those weren't ones I completely awww and googled eyed over because lately I am not content with my figure. I am afraid I am become obsessive. I know it's my fault for not managing my time to go on a routine to the gym. I just feel like I need a partner to work out so I can be motivated. I should be self-motivated I know...It's just hard when you see people around you that model and don't really put much into working out except not eating. I don't want to be unhealthy about it. I gotta do something about it because I want more confidence instead of moping about how dissatisifed I am with my figure...argh this just a complaining Karla tonight. I couldn't even stay to "party" with friends. It wasn't even a party or anything.I guess drinking isn't as appealing as before and I just feel more comfortable when I know Alex is around. Is a trust, who knows? I really miss him right now :(....This is a stupid rant, this is my time to get to bed or attempt to. Night all. Be safe