hearing yourself
the worst thing has got to be when you can't hear yourself think. or even better, when you can't hear your own heartbeat, becuase of other people telling you what it sounds like. and the worst part of all of this has got to be the fact of not realizing the obliviousness forever and snapping out of it one day and knowing that even now there's nothing to be done. it's a vicious circle of people influencing other people either purposely or subconsciously through opinion. it's rather retarded, and i have yet again taken part in it, therefore not knowing what i really think and only knowing what other people think. knowledge that i really coudln't care less about, how nice.