A Totally New Forced Beginning
Wow, so much has changed, and i can't really say it's for the better. Don't get me wrong... I absouletly love college... it's better than i could have ever imagined... i've met some amazing people, i love my classes, and school wise i've never been more happy. I have two wonderful baby turtles Eurika and Valeria. They look nothing like their mom, but they are so perfect in every way in a few weeks i will have 2 if not 3 more. So i guess in all rights i should be happy, but i'm not. Work this week was absolutely insane. I've had to deal with lines that wraped around the entire store. I've been getting home really late and having to wake up early the next morning for school. Not to mention the time i have had to make for homework, which is considerably less than high school considering i have a few days to do homework before it's actually due. Next week i would have started dance, and i really wished that were the case. It looks like i'm not dancing any more... Jelousy has totally destroyed my studio which now no longer exists. My dream job is now gone and all i'm left with is a job that i can do, but is no were near my cup of tea. I think what hurts most of all is that now for the first time in 13 or 14 years i am not going to be dancing. I didn't even get to enjoy my last recital as my final one. There is now no way to fix my mistakes i made the past year, and no classes to teach. That's it, it's the end it just really is upsetting. So i think for the first time in my life i'm mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausted. It hasn't really sunk in yet, and i really don't want to think about when it does. So now i have a totally new beginning and i'm not really sure i wanted it. I mean dance was what got me through high school. It was my destresser, it made me not care what anyone else thought, it was the one thing that was always truly there through thick and thin. It hurts to know that i was there just for that freedom and relaxation it brought me and while that was going on people were doing everything in their power to stop it. It almost make me pity them, but it's too late for that. They've showed there colors and have ruined it for others. I hope they're happy now. Well i've got to go....hope everyone is doing well ~Sharon~