You Hurt Me In the Long Run
Wow, people sure do know how to spoil my night... or basically my weekend.
I hate being the person who gets lied to, so the person who is telling me can piss off the person they are talking about...basically this...
I hate the fact that Anthony lied to me about Brian, just so he could piss Brian off.... did he not realize that by trying to piss him off he could really get me upset, and down in the dumps? You know it doesn't take much to make me feel awkward, to shut me up, and make me feel bad.... it doesn't take a lot to bring my whole world crashing down. Even though there really isn't much to bring down... but I don't know it's ironic that it happens...
So yeah Brian and I joke around about Anthony and Katie and Nikki... and we both know we are joking, but it's ironic that Anthony comes on and tells me Brian has been talking about Nikki all the time, and has this thing for her... I don't know what to believe, because it's weird I don't think Anthony would just say something like that, but I don't think Brian would lie either... I don't know I'm making it a point not to care anymore I guess, if Brian likes Nikki that's great... then he should go for it big time, he has a better chance of seeing her more anyways, and they are closer in age anyways... so it doesn't matter... I'm going to be happy if somethimg mutally good comes out of this for the both of them... they do talk a lot and they do seem to hit it off really well.... I'm not pissed about Nikki and Brian becoming friends, I'm just upset that it comes down to this.... I just I don't know I guess I do question having friends talk with Nikki because she is such a wonderful person, a better person then me.... and I don't know whatever I see it coming, but I don't want her to think I like hate her and don't want her to be friends with these people... because I do, but shit like this happens and I don't know what to do anymore... I sound arrogant and stuff, and I hate feeling like that, it makes me feel pretty shitty and pretty low...but whatever it's all good now...
But man people spoil my nights to easily, I let shit get to me, and I really shouldn't... that's the price of being a good person though... I get to emotional now... I guess I just need to think things through really... but hey
LIFE GOES ON!!
<33 Gina
I hate being the person who gets lied to, so the person who is telling me can piss off the person they are talking about...basically this...
I hate the fact that Anthony lied to me about Brian, just so he could piss Brian off.... did he not realize that by trying to piss him off he could really get me upset, and down in the dumps? You know it doesn't take much to make me feel awkward, to shut me up, and make me feel bad.... it doesn't take a lot to bring my whole world crashing down. Even though there really isn't much to bring down... but I don't know it's ironic that it happens...
So yeah Brian and I joke around about Anthony and Katie and Nikki... and we both know we are joking, but it's ironic that Anthony comes on and tells me Brian has been talking about Nikki all the time, and has this thing for her... I don't know what to believe, because it's weird I don't think Anthony would just say something like that, but I don't think Brian would lie either... I don't know I'm making it a point not to care anymore I guess, if Brian likes Nikki that's great... then he should go for it big time, he has a better chance of seeing her more anyways, and they are closer in age anyways... so it doesn't matter... I'm going to be happy if somethimg mutally good comes out of this for the both of them... they do talk a lot and they do seem to hit it off really well.... I'm not pissed about Nikki and Brian becoming friends, I'm just upset that it comes down to this.... I just I don't know I guess I do question having friends talk with Nikki because she is such a wonderful person, a better person then me.... and I don't know whatever I see it coming, but I don't want her to think I like hate her and don't want her to be friends with these people... because I do, but shit like this happens and I don't know what to do anymore... I sound arrogant and stuff, and I hate feeling like that, it makes me feel pretty shitty and pretty low...but whatever it's all good now...
But man people spoil my nights to easily, I let shit get to me, and I really shouldn't... that's the price of being a good person though... I get to emotional now... I guess I just need to think things through really... but hey
LIFE GOES ON!!
<33 Gina