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Honestly, I'm not sure if I'm supposed to turn inward, and just pretend the world away, or if I'm supposed to be fairly fucking pissed, and give it the finger.
You know, at one point, I imagine I wasn't this fucking bitter, in fact I know for a fact I wasn't.
I'm sure as fuck not perfect, but you know what, neither is anyone else. And anyone who decides that I'm beneathe them can get off their fucking high horse.
I do know however, that I sure as fuck don't deserve this. Any of it.
And people get angry at me when I lash out so easily. You know why I do? Cause if I hurt you, you sure as fuck can't do it to me.
I'm tired. Like fucking always.
Doesn't help that all night long I had people knocking on my door, so I could fix their problems on duty. I mean, yeah, that's my job and all, but shit. Seriously, how fucking retarded can people be?
Speaking of retarded, it seems I still can't learn a damn thing in school, and you know, I wish I could give up. That'd be so much easier than adding this beating in.
You know, at one point, I imagine I wasn't this fucking bitter, in fact I know for a fact I wasn't.
I'm sure as fuck not perfect, but you know what, neither is anyone else. And anyone who decides that I'm beneathe them can get off their fucking high horse.
I do know however, that I sure as fuck don't deserve this. Any of it.
And people get angry at me when I lash out so easily. You know why I do? Cause if I hurt you, you sure as fuck can't do it to me.
I'm tired. Like fucking always.
Doesn't help that all night long I had people knocking on my door, so I could fix their problems on duty. I mean, yeah, that's my job and all, but shit. Seriously, how fucking retarded can people be?
Speaking of retarded, it seems I still can't learn a damn thing in school, and you know, I wish I could give up. That'd be so much easier than adding this beating in.