okay, seriously you don't have to read this.

[lastbeautifool]

so things have been kind of ugly with me lately, as i'm sure you could tell. readers of this blog probably know that i am, in fact, batshit crazy from time to time (but who with an lj isn't? srsly. the land of emo.).

anyway, the whole reason for starting this blog was because i am a neurotically private, compartmentalized person and i was supposed

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[hopeandmemory]

I get what you mean about feeling like an attention-seeker when you make posts like these, but sometimes you need to get it out and sometimes it's a little comforting to get feedback. Or whatever you'd call it. But I know, it's like... you feel bad for other people having to listen to your endless insecurities. (God knows I'm such an emotional wreck, I so understand that.)

I think a lot of the problem is that you either consciously or subconsciously don't find yourself worthy of people's admiration and respect and so you worry that no one likes you because you don't like you. This is a feeling I know very well. And that's a tough thing to overcome. But I think it helps to write it down and then use it as a reference to try and improve or whatever

[lastbeautifool]

wow. it only took me forever and a decade to reply to this.

your psychoanalyzing is totally excused and, as far as i can see, totally accurate. i think because i know myself best and i'm my worst critic or whatever i recognize all of these horrible things about myself and then fear that everyone else sees them too and hates them just as much as i do. or more, even. i just worry and worry and it gets bigger and bigger and bigger and urgh.

thank you for liking me. i'm so very pleased to be part of the "liz likes me" club. and just so you know, i like you very very much in return.

[quietdrive]

Okay, in all complete honest to God and blog and insert deity of your choice here, I don't hate you. And while I'm pretty sure that there are some very spiteful people in the world who DO have the capacity to hate even someone as charming and talented as you, they're obviously not worth worrying about. And I know, because sometimes I have the same paranoia, that this doesn't always help to hear, but it's the truth. Just wanted you to know.

[lastbeautifool]

i'm sorry it took me so long to reply to this. thank you so so much for reading and commenting and not hating me. isn't it weird how that paranoia sneaks up? like you say you feel it too and i can't help but think "wtf? who would hate ama?" i'm pretty sure the answer is "no one." but we don't always see what other people see, i guess. distorted views of things and all that.

thank you for not hating me. i don't hate you either. in fact, i really really quite like you. <3

[ellabella_lala]

I love that you did this. And for the record, it makes me love and admire you all the more. In part because I relate so very much at times, and love that you put it into words, but also... the simple fact that you are brave enough to do it.

Well done, Brenna. From afar, I still love you.

[lastbeautifool]

and from afar, i still love you back, sweetheart.

[teakettlemonkey]

Okay, sometimes you smell. but in all fairness, I can seriously out-smelly you any day, sometimes twice. so i won't judge you. and you're my snappy, so if anyone ELSE tells you that you smell, I will So-Help-Me-Cut-A-Bitch on them.

Slappy bits.