Well
Today was nice. Quiet and soothing. It got to me around 10 and I went back online, but I feel a bit better and I did do the one thing that I really, really wanted to, which was divination. The Tarot, runes, and oghams agree on most of what they had to say, which is kinda odd. I'm equating it to a kick upside the head from the universe, to the tune of "hey bitch, wake up and pay attention."
It's a bit odd, frankly, because a lot of times when I do divination, nothing really clicks. It doesn't make sense and I end up drawing a ton of extra cards to figure out what the hell is going on. I only had to draw one extra card tonight, when I read a Celtic Cross with my Arthurian deck, and the new card was related to the one that had confused me, but much clearer. My cards seem to be rather insistent about the theme of self-confidence, which amuses me as I have next to none. Altogether everything was insistent about imminent change and the need to listen to my intuition. My emotions are also getting in the way, it would seem. How lovely.
Once I finish making my divination notes, I think I'm going to go back to taking astrology notes...it's an intellectually interesting subject for me, even though I don't feel that it has much to offer my study of Wicca. I'm not big on using planetary correspondences and such in my workings, but it's something for me to think about. I have some notes from last year, but I'd like to take more. I don't know why I have this compulsion to research things I probably won't use, but I do. I guess because my style is pretty static....call the deities I want and the elementals if I feel like it, use candles and oils and herbs and stuff, maybe with runic inscriptions if I feel like it, and let's not forget the gems. Ah well. It suits me.
I don't want to go to class tomorrow morning...don't want to take my Latin quiz...sigh, oh well. It's not as though there's a whole lot I can do about it. I am sort of supposed to be here to learn.
I didn't do any homework this weekend ¬.¬ mostly cause I didn't feel up to it...I have a lot of catching up still to do...why does it always feel like the more I try to catch up the more I fall behind....*sigh*
I didn't accomplish everything I wanted to do today, and that kind of annoys me. But I enjoyed my day, which is I think the more important part.
Now I just have to figure out how to implement the advice I got....and how to not end up depressed again....fun fun fun...
It's a bit odd, frankly, because a lot of times when I do divination, nothing really clicks. It doesn't make sense and I end up drawing a ton of extra cards to figure out what the hell is going on. I only had to draw one extra card tonight, when I read a Celtic Cross with my Arthurian deck, and the new card was related to the one that had confused me, but much clearer. My cards seem to be rather insistent about the theme of self-confidence, which amuses me as I have next to none. Altogether everything was insistent about imminent change and the need to listen to my intuition. My emotions are also getting in the way, it would seem. How lovely.
Once I finish making my divination notes, I think I'm going to go back to taking astrology notes...it's an intellectually interesting subject for me, even though I don't feel that it has much to offer my study of Wicca. I'm not big on using planetary correspondences and such in my workings, but it's something for me to think about. I have some notes from last year, but I'd like to take more. I don't know why I have this compulsion to research things I probably won't use, but I do. I guess because my style is pretty static....call the deities I want and the elementals if I feel like it, use candles and oils and herbs and stuff, maybe with runic inscriptions if I feel like it, and let's not forget the gems. Ah well. It suits me.
I don't want to go to class tomorrow morning...don't want to take my Latin quiz...sigh, oh well. It's not as though there's a whole lot I can do about it. I am sort of supposed to be here to learn.
I didn't do any homework this weekend ¬.¬ mostly cause I didn't feel up to it...I have a lot of catching up still to do...why does it always feel like the more I try to catch up the more I fall behind....*sigh*
I didn't accomplish everything I wanted to do today, and that kind of annoys me. But I enjoyed my day, which is I think the more important part.
Now I just have to figure out how to implement the advice I got....and how to not end up depressed again....fun fun fun...