decisions, decisions...
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-sigh- still haven't given dave an answer yet. i mean, i kinda-sorta-almost have, but i haven't come right out and said it in so many words yet. and i think i'm gonna tell him "not yet". because, as soon as it is after him and jen broke up, i feel like i'm just "rebound". even though he said that he'd been thinking of breaking up with jen for a while, and never really stopped liking me... and god, being held again feels so... gah, i don't even know how to put it into words.
and ian, really, is no longer an issue- i'm starting to stop liking him. which i suppose isn't too surprising, after two years of liking him, and making little progress. and kendra- our biggest "push"/ supporter said that she agreed with my giving up on him, which surprised the heck out of me. and as mike said in our conversation the other day- i shouldn't make him a priority when i'm only a maybe to him. so... ack, i can't believe that after all this time... -long breath- it's such a strange feeling, to all of a sudden stop liking him. cuz it's just BEEN THERE, at the back of my mind, for so long, that having it disappearing... i dunno.
i was talking to anna about it, and she helped me out... (another cut, another day. (RENT joke, lol!) this is fun... haha)
well i think you need to wait a while. see if he feels the same way after the smoke clears if you get what i mean.... you need to give dave some time single and see how he feels in a week or 2. if he still want to go out with you then, go for it! but if he still seems affected by recent events, dont go out with him. tell him you care for him but you dont want to be the rebound girl. if hes a good guy he'll understand.
so, yeah... i agree with her. now, how to explain it to dave... :/ ah-ha.
...well, happy "leap year day", lol...
oy vey... my parents are arguing again... someone, save me? pleaz? i can't deal with this right now...
as always,
~ish
-sigh- still haven't given dave an answer yet. i mean, i kinda-sorta-almost have, but i haven't come right out and said it in so many words yet. and i think i'm gonna tell him "not yet". because, as soon as it is after him and jen broke up, i feel like i'm just "rebound". even though he said that he'd been thinking of breaking up with jen for a while, and never really stopped liking me... and god, being held again feels so... gah, i don't even know how to put it into words.
and ian, really, is no longer an issue- i'm starting to stop liking him. which i suppose isn't too surprising, after two years of liking him, and making little progress. and kendra- our biggest "push"/ supporter said that she agreed with my giving up on him, which surprised the heck out of me. and as mike said in our conversation the other day- i shouldn't make him a priority when i'm only a maybe to him. so... ack, i can't believe that after all this time... -long breath- it's such a strange feeling, to all of a sudden stop liking him. cuz it's just BEEN THERE, at the back of my mind, for so long, that having it disappearing... i dunno.
i was talking to anna about it, and she helped me out... (another cut, another day. (RENT joke, lol!) this is fun... haha)
well i think you need to wait a while. see if he feels the same way after the smoke clears if you get what i mean.... you need to give dave some time single and see how he feels in a week or 2. if he still want to go out with you then, go for it! but if he still seems affected by recent events, dont go out with him. tell him you care for him but you dont want to be the rebound girl. if hes a good guy he'll understand.
so, yeah... i agree with her. now, how to explain it to dave... :/ ah-ha.
...well, happy "leap year day", lol...
oy vey... my parents are arguing again... someone, save me? pleaz? i can't deal with this right now...
as always,
~ish