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come to think about it....i'm sort of glad that i don't have to deal with the crap back in Virginia anymore. in observing both the teenagers here in nbenton and the teenagers in falls church, i have coem to conclusion.
I don't want to be around them.
It's rare when i find someone i respect enough to trust them with my feelings. And all the craptastic hormone-riddled young minds about me only cause me to take a good, hard look at myself. Which inevitably leads to self-loathing, because i'm just like them in alot of ways. except for the fact that i see my flaws in crystal clarity, and want to DO something about them.
I'm just another of the herd. This makes me want to never leave my room. There is only one person within a half hour of my house who i would ever respect, or want to trust. And the fact that i want to trust him shows me that i might already trust him a little bit.
I'ts time to go drink alot of iced tea. get some energy, clean.
I don't want to be around them.
It's rare when i find someone i respect enough to trust them with my feelings. And all the craptastic hormone-riddled young minds about me only cause me to take a good, hard look at myself. Which inevitably leads to self-loathing, because i'm just like them in alot of ways. except for the fact that i see my flaws in crystal clarity, and want to DO something about them.
I'm just another of the herd. This makes me want to never leave my room. There is only one person within a half hour of my house who i would ever respect, or want to trust. And the fact that i want to trust him shows me that i might already trust him a little bit.
I'ts time to go drink alot of iced tea. get some energy, clean.