The Biggest Things
1. I went to my sister's wedding shower, hosted by my aunt (my mom's sister) and it stirred up a lot of shit seeing the two of them together. Also, I really had no opportunity to help with the shower whatsoever, and the other two bridesmaids did, and I feel really shitty about that, like I didn't do my share, but also that I was purposely shut out of doing my share.
2. I wanted to go to NJ for Thanksgiving, you know, to see my dad's family, and also because I know Bevan really wanted to go too, to see his dad, and probably more so all his friends. But... we spent Thanksgiving here at home. I cooked a whole bunch of stuff and it was kind of a whirlwind. My kitchen is still a wreck. But I've been making some delicious leftovers all weekend.
3. I un-registered from my classes next semester. I'm not going. I felt a thousand times better as soon as I did that, and I had been halfway planning to do that all along, but now that just leaves me very worried about what I AM going to do if I'm not going to school. And... I'm very much embarrassed to share this, because I'm basically admitting to giving up. There it is, everyone. I just plain gave up.
2. I wanted to go to NJ for Thanksgiving, you know, to see my dad's family, and also because I know Bevan really wanted to go too, to see his dad, and probably more so all his friends. But... we spent Thanksgiving here at home. I cooked a whole bunch of stuff and it was kind of a whirlwind. My kitchen is still a wreck. But I've been making some delicious leftovers all weekend.
3. I un-registered from my classes next semester. I'm not going. I felt a thousand times better as soon as I did that, and I had been halfway planning to do that all along, but now that just leaves me very worried about what I AM going to do if I'm not going to school. And... I'm very much embarrassed to share this, because I'm basically admitting to giving up. There it is, everyone. I just plain gave up.