Deep breath...
After three nights of not getting much sleep at all my body caved last night. I was so exhausted ( physical and emotionally) that I more or less passed out. I sleep a solid 8 hours. Still, all I want to go is crawl back in tot bed. I am very tired still I think it might take a few days before I am not tired all the time.
I have to work 9 hours today. Oh joy (that is sarcasm by the way).
Nothing else much to say. I went up to the P&E last night. Had a good talk with a girlfriend f mine. I feel less a fool now. Sometime I wonder if guys are worth the time at all. No matter how much you give they will never give the same back. They can’t. It is not how they are wired. This is the reason I am not mad at him that I spent yesterday waiting for him to call. Note the “I spent”. That is not his fault. I have finally gotten to a point where I am not mad at myself either. I was just being me: too giving, too hopeful. I’m not gonna worry about it at all any more. If he calls he calls. If not that why should I waste me time on him when he is not spending any of his on me. Therefore this will be the lat you hear of it (unless he calls).
I have to work 9 hours today. Oh joy (that is sarcasm by the way).
Nothing else much to say. I went up to the P&E last night. Had a good talk with a girlfriend f mine. I feel less a fool now. Sometime I wonder if guys are worth the time at all. No matter how much you give they will never give the same back. They can’t. It is not how they are wired. This is the reason I am not mad at him that I spent yesterday waiting for him to call. Note the “I spent”. That is not his fault. I have finally gotten to a point where I am not mad at myself either. I was just being me: too giving, too hopeful. I’m not gonna worry about it at all any more. If he calls he calls. If not that why should I waste me time on him when he is not spending any of his on me. Therefore this will be the lat you hear of it (unless he calls).