hello and welcome to the "nothing rhymes with heart-broken, shocked emo child," tour.
hai. i'm going to introduce you all to "emo!lania." as some of you know, my favorite band in the history of forever panic at the disco has decided to pursue personal musical interests. that means jon walker and ryan ross have gone off to do their own thing and brendon urie and spencer smith have stayed as what could be called panic (!) at the disco; the new generation. the amazing behindthec has already made a kick-ass post about this, and what it means for panic's fandom base here on lj. but because a lot of my friends aren't panic at the disco people, they're probably wondering why the fuck i care so much about a band.
i've been obsessed with these boys for over five years. they were my first ever concert, and every square inch of my bedroom is covered in posters of them. i have so much merchandise of theirs that is isn't even funny when i say it won't fit in my drawer. i've met brendon urie and jon walker and i have pretty much every piece of music they've ever played. they are the most played on my ipod, and i have their box sets and dvds. i kid you not, when i say i am obsessed with these kids. i've grown up with these boys, and to have something that i have relied on so heavily break apart is heart-breaking for me. i feel kind of lost beause they've been one of the most constant things in my ilfe, and i know that they are half way around the world and they don't know who i am, but. that's not the point. i'm fucking heartbroken and i'm sick of people giving me shit about it.
i know they're just a band to a lot of people, and it's ridiculous that i should be getting so worked up. but i'm fucking allowed to, and i don't care what anyone else thinks. i know i don't know them personally, they're not in any way shape or form related to me; but that doesn't matter. this is in no way supposed to sound offensive to anyone on or off my flist; but i felt that i needed to say this. no one except electrumqueen irl understands how horrible i feel. she was the first person i rung and blubbered to down the phone. fuck she met brendon and jon with me after ~stalking them in town. we went to their pretty. odd. concert together and got barrier, we waited in line for fucking hours. just. god. this band means so much to me that i can't let them go. i won't let them go.
you guys on here are amazing, though, and thank you for your support. you're all lifesavers.
i've been obsessed with these boys for over five years. they were my first ever concert, and every square inch of my bedroom is covered in posters of them. i have so much merchandise of theirs that is isn't even funny when i say it won't fit in my drawer. i've met brendon urie and jon walker and i have pretty much every piece of music they've ever played. they are the most played on my ipod, and i have their box sets and dvds. i kid you not, when i say i am obsessed with these kids. i've grown up with these boys, and to have something that i have relied on so heavily break apart is heart-breaking for me. i feel kind of lost beause they've been one of the most constant things in my ilfe, and i know that they are half way around the world and they don't know who i am, but. that's not the point. i'm fucking heartbroken and i'm sick of people giving me shit about it.
i know they're just a band to a lot of people, and it's ridiculous that i should be getting so worked up. but i'm fucking allowed to, and i don't care what anyone else thinks. i know i don't know them personally, they're not in any way shape or form related to me; but that doesn't matter. this is in no way supposed to sound offensive to anyone on or off my flist; but i felt that i needed to say this. no one except electrumqueen irl understands how horrible i feel. she was the first person i rung and blubbered to down the phone. fuck she met brendon and jon with me after ~stalking them in town. we went to their pretty. odd. concert together and got barrier, we waited in line for fucking hours. just. god. this band means so much to me that i can't let them go. i won't let them go.
you guys on here are amazing, though, and thank you for your support. you're all lifesavers.