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[languidpyre]

Well I have been back in Canada for a little over 12 hours. I gotta say that I really miss the lush beauty of Mexico. Everything was so green lush and humid- here it's rainy grey cold and a little bleak. It is taking me some time to adjust to being home- my head is just not grounded yet. I went horseback riding in the mountains while I was

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[kern]

I would kill to see the turtles hatching and making their way for shore. I'm like a turtles hatching and making their way for shore junky in many respects.

So, I debated this. I think my last update was in 2004 and I'm not likely to ever use the thing again but you have been honest and forthcoming and I may as well do the same. I also thought it was a bit stupid to want to hide something from someone who already knows some of my (and our) lesser than fine moments.

Like I said before, we share a bond.

So most of my posts are negative nonsence. A lot of the more extreme ones are also nowhere near as bad as things were. I'm a fairly proud person and hate people that flaunt their mental problems. I was also quite aware that people were going to be reading so everything has to be taken with that in mind. I was also drunk. Very drunk. Some of it is more real than I'd like to admit and I cannot read a lot of it. It does not paint a pretty picture and part of the reason I no longer post is because it really is just a forum for my negativity. I must admit that I also no longer post because I'm quite aware that Susannah will be reading.

Um, I guess that's it. It's a weird sign of the times that there is this strange document of an unhappy, then happy, then medium time of my life.