once a failure. always a failure.
i think he will break up with me soon. i'm not worth holding onto. i just got angry at him. i asked him some questions, like some stuff like about his past, his ex gf's and instead of answering it properly. he says 'if i didnt wanna be with you. id tell you. you're thinking too much' and i replied and said 'fine' .. he goes 'what's that supposed to mean?" and i said "i didnt like your answer ok" and he goes "please dont play silly buggers with me, im not a child and dont enjoy it." and that really got to me because im just a little girl to him, so i said 'im sorry i will always be a little girl to you and will never be mature enough for you" and he says "please. not this again" .. i don't really know what to do. i want to do what i usually do to my bf's in this situation. break up.. but then i'm scared of letting go because im scared he wont want me back.. and i dont want to let go.. entirely.. i just want to see how much i really mean to him.. but then i dont know.. he once said to me, that i fckn mean alot to him.. but i really dont know.. he told me he loves me heaps..... but i still.. feel insecure.. i hate my life.