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halloween is that one time a year when i creep inside myself and can be five again.
i couldn't fit in any parties, due to wingspan.
i made those puppies myself. an improvement of a version my mom made my little sister in about 1986.
someone said, after all my crafting amd costume making was through (i made my friend a tutu) was through, "lydia, youd make a great mom."
no comment on that.
so scary.
ive been drowning in work. just this deep ocean of rulers, french curves and half scale useless bodice patterns and samples. In italian workbook, geology flash cards, retail savvy, and i try to swim out with my grayscale marker soaked fingers, and i barley bubble to the surface. i will no take this moment of precious time, and apologize to all who have been washed away from me in the wake of this watery hell. im sorry to friends i haven't called a checked up on, im sorry for the constant away messages, and im sorry for not ever picking up a pen and paper or a phone. i barely have time to breath and so much has been sacrificed because of that.
i love my life. i love the support of friends here. i love that im still poked fun at by the guys here. i love that i am loved and feel amazing everyday because of one persons beautiful presence. i love that when i went home to see my family, i love them more than ever....my moms insanity, my dads talkitive joking way....one that i have picked up im sure, my sisters beauty and GRACE (PUN!!!), my brothers grown up self and his inner child still surviving even though hes starting the hell of high school, and my older sisters care free love of life and the little jokes it plays. I love NYC and the quiet weekend caileen and i spent like grannies....all cooped up and wrinkly. eating fruit roll ups.
i have faith in myself and surviving this crucial year of school.....im keeping the faith.
me as a monarch, and ryan as beer pong....friday night
my beautiful wings ! made out of vinyl, wire, wire hangers, acrylic paint, and elastic straps.
ryan as hunter s. thompson....from fear and loathing ......you know.
the one, the only, MINUS THE BEAR!
love to all!