*sighs*

Dec 31, 2009 22:07

i hate my life....i really do. I know my life compares to other's situations, but where i want to be achieving, i can't even achieve in. I am just so frustrated!!!! I have had 2 paycuts to equal to 8% and there is no way we are getting it back. my old boss was fired (YAY!!) but i got a new one and he is much better and appreciates me, but the owners dont. there have been many projects that they have gone to someone else and not to me and i am just getting annoyed. The thing that took the case, was the day of christmas party, they called everyone out in the office and not me! and i was next to my boss and behind the owner's wife who looked at me a couple times and nothing was said. and i have been working there a year and a half, so i am DONE! if you cant thank me for everything and since my old boss leaving i have more responsibilities then ever and dont say a word, i am finish! so i have been looking for part-time and full time jobs. i had an interview w a company that gets other companies to come to them to fill positions. so it is for a job near by and it would be great! and i feel i could do it but who knows, i have to wait on an interview from this other company, but i am trying not to think about it and just keep applying. it does not help it is slow for applying because of the holidays but i try to apply for 4 jobs a day or so. But whatever. i need out.

Then there is my none existing love life. I had a date a while back adn it went well but we are better off friends. so yeah. there is no guys and i hate it. i am still good friends w my ex adn i have no issue w him, we are on better terms and i think we are trying to respect each other and not push the buttons on each other. of course he is dating someone new (the bitch is gone thank god) and i like the new girl but i am seriously jealous and i think it is more of like how can he get someone but i cant. so yeah ughhh

i feel like i am going a mile a minute w things w my parents and i dont get me time and do what i want and all this snow and bad weather does not help things. Next week i am going to run errands and i hope next weekend i can go to dc and see a few thigns and if anything take photos with my new camera (my big xmas gift was a Nikon D90) EEEEKKK :) makes me so excited.

so yeah...i hate my job, i hate my love life and i hate that i live at home still. I want to be moved out more than anything bc i wont be able to date anyone if i live at home bc my parents are so protected and i have to tell them every detail of what is going on and i might kill myself with it and even if i talk to them, they make excuses and it is just pointless.

*beats head* ughh i am just going to get back to working out for me and doing my thing and work my 8hrs and no longer bc i dont get paid enough to do all the shit i do. i am tired of it.
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