Jung-Myers Personality Test.
ENFJ
Extraverted 11%
Intuitive 38%
Feeling 12%
Judging 33%
Barely one way or the other except intuitive and judging. It's nice to know that I'm coming to some kinda middle ground with my intro/extroversion and my thinking/feeling...well, when it comes to decision making anyways...according to this test. Wish there was a 500 question version to get a bit more detailed version or maybe even a little more accurate.
I do feel like this is a fairly good depiction of how I've changed over the last few years. I think a good bit has to do with going (far) away to college and meeting DW. Diana was so warm and level headed that I couldn't help but try to 'steal', or reinforce, some of those characteristics. I am all about personal development. Maybe to a point where it's consumed and isolated me a bit. I mean, I haven't met many people who are all about bettering themselves...which is fucking depressing, I guess. But, whatever...
Anyways, ever since I was about 18 I felt this huge whole in my heart and head. Like I was missing out on my life.
Aside: I don't believe in Christianity or some other hocus pocus set of beliefs where the 'way the world works' is determined by some set of obscure rules/laws. Science is paving the way to transform the magical and obscure into some kind of natural clarity. And, one of those things is that our bodies destined for worm food. Regardless what may happen to my personality or consciousness is beyond my grasp for now, so I think I will just live this life attempting to better myself and the quality of life of those around me...and indulging in some decadence along the way. I am human after all. I know I'm not perfect, I accept that.
Being so introverted and walled off left me feeling like I was missing out on all the people of this world. On top of being introverted I used my logic brain to simply shroud my heart from enduring and dealing with certain painful experiences/memories/emotions. But, I didn't know how to change all that...fear is a powerful drug. Rain said something along the lines that real attraction/chemistry can transcend anything, which while it sounds romantic is simply not true. While something like that did happen between Diana and I, it wasn't due to attraction. It was due to my strong desire to not be afraid anymore. I simply wasn't willing to allow it to turn out like it did with Kristin, Rayna, Kari, Hannah, or Christen. I think that's one of the layers I felt when talking to Kasey. I could see her fear, and felt like I could help her some since I exhibited similar fears when I was her age...oh well, sometimes good intentions aren't enough.
So, it's nice to know that I am changing. I hope it's for the best, but I'm not going to bullshit myself and say that it IS. Maybe sometimes all it talks to find some balance is time, effort, and a little confidence. When put like that it doesn't really seem that special or unique to me. I suppose that's a good thing too. Everyone should be entitled to peace of mind even if it's just a little or self-made.
Extraverted 11%
Intuitive 38%
Feeling 12%
Judging 33%
Barely one way or the other except intuitive and judging. It's nice to know that I'm coming to some kinda middle ground with my intro/extroversion and my thinking/feeling...well, when it comes to decision making anyways...according to this test. Wish there was a 500 question version to get a bit more detailed version or maybe even a little more accurate.
I do feel like this is a fairly good depiction of how I've changed over the last few years. I think a good bit has to do with going (far) away to college and meeting DW. Diana was so warm and level headed that I couldn't help but try to 'steal', or reinforce, some of those characteristics. I am all about personal development. Maybe to a point where it's consumed and isolated me a bit. I mean, I haven't met many people who are all about bettering themselves...which is fucking depressing, I guess. But, whatever...
Anyways, ever since I was about 18 I felt this huge whole in my heart and head. Like I was missing out on my life.
Aside: I don't believe in Christianity or some other hocus pocus set of beliefs where the 'way the world works' is determined by some set of obscure rules/laws. Science is paving the way to transform the magical and obscure into some kind of natural clarity. And, one of those things is that our bodies destined for worm food. Regardless what may happen to my personality or consciousness is beyond my grasp for now, so I think I will just live this life attempting to better myself and the quality of life of those around me...and indulging in some decadence along the way. I am human after all. I know I'm not perfect, I accept that.
Being so introverted and walled off left me feeling like I was missing out on all the people of this world. On top of being introverted I used my logic brain to simply shroud my heart from enduring and dealing with certain painful experiences/memories/emotions. But, I didn't know how to change all that...fear is a powerful drug. Rain said something along the lines that real attraction/chemistry can transcend anything, which while it sounds romantic is simply not true. While something like that did happen between Diana and I, it wasn't due to attraction. It was due to my strong desire to not be afraid anymore. I simply wasn't willing to allow it to turn out like it did with Kristin, Rayna, Kari, Hannah, or Christen. I think that's one of the layers I felt when talking to Kasey. I could see her fear, and felt like I could help her some since I exhibited similar fears when I was her age...oh well, sometimes good intentions aren't enough.
So, it's nice to know that I am changing. I hope it's for the best, but I'm not going to bullshit myself and say that it IS. Maybe sometimes all it talks to find some balance is time, effort, and a little confidence. When put like that it doesn't really seem that special or unique to me. I suppose that's a good thing too. Everyone should be entitled to peace of mind even if it's just a little or self-made.